today was another boring day again.woke up,had breakfast and back to doing household chores again.actually at first is just wiping of the floor.after tat,i went back to read my book 'the last song'.the second time i read and i can still cry at the part when the dad is dying.haiz..then half way through the book,receive a call from my aunt whom fetch my grandma to the clinic, that my grandma had fainted and ask us to hurry cook some porridge for her while my uncle fetch her home.she seems weak when she reach home...so in the end the whole family begin to 'supervise' her.i even read my book beside her bed just in case she need anything,while my aunt do her stuff...when my aunt is back,i went to my parents room to continue reading,as i can't possibly cry in front of my grandma for just a book right.lol...so after finish reading,i went to prepare dinner ingredients,followed by ironing of clothes.after that was about 4plus and i did not take any lunch.so i ate a super heavy tea-time meal.followed by using of computer since i got nothing to do.lol..and now i was ordered or specifically picked to be the one on 'shift' tml morning when none of my parents are in and i have to supervise my grandma.i m ok with doing this but then one thing make me irritated...i was reminded duno how many hundred times over the same thing--> to wake up early,by my parents and aunt....do i look so irresponsible?

o wells...watever...i dun give a damn la...i confirm will wake up early no matter wat.will try my best...but is like wth la..i hate it when pple keep reminding me of stuff that i will do,but then they think like as if i cannot do it or wat so ever.is like dun trust me or wat la...damn pissed,which also reminded me of another issue-->when doing housework,my sis was told to do something and she nv talk back,she was like praised or 'loved' cos she do it,then when i volunteer without asking(just because i know the person is sick or unwell and my sis dun even notice),it was like being taken for granted.-_-...i guess no one just understand me...everytime just see the surface or wat...is like i actually care alot and all...like worry for pple and etc just that i dun say it out..and pple think as if i m heartless??

pfft....give up la...just rot during the holidays la...like watever i do..i just look like i m not a filial child or grandchild.maybe i should just live my life for myself?(which i noe is a damn wrong thinking and i confirm will not do it)

haiz.this few days really alot of things happen and make me think alot.damn...really man...pple are enjoying holidays but yet i seems to be dreading holiday...argh...


if i were to show trust in you,it means that i have 100% of that trust in you.however,once u betrayed it,you will never have that trust again