have been busy with lots of stuff recently...and things have been happening one by one which i have no mood to talk abt it.feeling very restless recently...keep taking naps and sleeping...i have no idea y...watever...i give up

just finished watching 就想赖着你.again...was always the ending abit not wat i expected...but overall not bad la..some parts quite funny

well,got nothing much to post...actually wanted to upload pictures of the models i made on saturday.but it seems like i have problem uploading. shall make do with just one..the picture below..which is one of my 2 worst model out of all because for this the 'head' abit hard to do...hehe

was just looking through my blog,and realise i post alot of stuff in march.perhaps it was the holidays and practically have nothing to do.lol...

finally finished packing the cupboard.in total empty out 2 bags of garbage.lol...i wonder y i kept them initially.lol..going to be done with the mini models that i took to do up..left one last one..which is more tough.tml task to do is to do my write up for testimonial,which i have to hand in and i have no idea wat to type...cos it sounds so self praise.lol...

during the past few days,alot of things happen,make my mood super down.i feel like cooping at home cos i dun feel like going out,but i dun wan to be at home cos i will have to do alot of things and 'see' alot of things...is there anywhere tat i can be alone?i just need a place of my own..sometimes i feel like moving out to live alone...cos wats the point of living together when your presence is kind of ignored?haiz...sometimes....i really dun like my aunt...biased and proud...really hate to face them

today went to eat steam boat buffet for dinner at bugis near the shaw house...was quite nice..the food...alot of variety..actually it is like seoul garden la...hot plate cum steamboat.lol.have quite alot of fun together...while eating,met some of my sec sch frens and also the shop caught fire.lol...so 'special' right.haha...

after dinner,we went to illuma to walk around...actually wan catch a movie but nothing nice...then they wan go club,but the girls are not ok with it,so in the end we went tcc to have a drink and play games.i suay till the max...kenna all forfeit.damn it...watever man..dun even bother to think abt it le..damn embarassing...

finally finished packing half of my cupboard today.lol...took quite some time to sort out the stuff and etc,and packed out a big bag of rubbish and also a pile of exercise books,notebooks and empty cd covers...kind of found quite alot of stuff that is related to my secondary sch,which makes me miss some parts of the secondary sch...wells...already graduated for about 3yrs?lol.thinking abt that,it was somewhat long time ago...

shall continue to pack my cupboard tml!have been lacking of sleep..

"It takes a second to say I love you,but a lifetime to show it"

"If I have to choose between loving you and breathing,I would use my last breath to say " I love you"."

woke up at 7am again today...super tired...took care of grandma before going out...went to eat dim sum buffet at dragon gate,follow by a movie. the buffet was quite nice...really filling.ate like only once of most variety of food and can feel full le...and we nv order finish all food on menu.lol.in the end left with fried rice,as we duno who to clear,we played a game:write numbers on toothpick and we pick one by turns and eat the no. of mouth of rice accordingly.lol...only way to clear the rice.haha...but ate 2 bowls of cold corn and mixed fruit sago.super delicious.haha...dun mind eating alot but damn fattening due to coconut milk.haha

after tat watch movie at vivo.really weird man...only vivo dun offer student price.is like wat the??anyway,watched remember me...it was ok la...cos some part of the movie is abit unknown to me..but still overall can remember la.haha...then from those trailers before the movie,i saw 4 interesting movie to me: whip it, when in rome, date night, and letters to juliet.these add on to my movie list after the last song.lol...i realise those are like romance comedy stuff...lol (trailers at bottom)

nv get to pack my cupboard AGAIN cos i was home late..lol...tml i guess?haha...really need pack la..but now damn late le..hehe..

o wells,tml another 'morning shift'.time to sleep early!

while waiting to go out and also liven up my down mood,due to results(though still abit no use),i saw a quite long ago video. Super Junior KyuHyun and a girl(if i not wrong,the girl is called Charice) singing 'A Whole New World'.Quite nice.lol...to me sounds abit like original soundtrack.lol

i now dun have any mood to get out of the house.firstly is because of rain.second is beause of my results.it just came out not long ago.though i counted score better than my previous sem,but because my previous sem really score damn bad,so my results are pulled down even more. i scored a majority of Bs,but then the high credit points one i scored majority B and C+,only got an A,but actually i expected to have another A.haiz.

totally not in any mood...

today i felt like totally drained off...last night cannot really sleep until about 2plus am,then woke up at 6plus 7am to take care of my grandma as my mum is out and no one is at home and i was specifically picked.help her around the house,prepared food and drinks for her,help her apply medicine then she lie on the sofa to sleep.quite a lot of pple came to visit today so to be exact,i only catch a few minutes of sleep at times,always on the floor.and my sis can happily sleep on her bed till 11am.wth.unfair man.then i used lap top for a moment,before more relatives come and also my mum come back home.so after lunch,as my living room is too crowded,i decided to stay in the kitchen to help my mum with preparation of dinner,where i end up slicing small part of the skin of my finger.lol..and i duno where it end up.HAHA.then after all relatives gone home,i on my lap top again.but before doing much,after signing in of msn,i fell asleep beside my laptop,on the floor for a short moment.after tat i went jogging and after that was bath,dinner and continue of using laptop and watch dvd.

suppose to pack my cupboard today as planned.luckily i did not empty them in the day if not with so many pple coming to visit,they will see a mess over the floor.lol

have been aching all over...wonder issit rheumatism.lol.cos i have been falling asleep on the floor more and more frequent already.lol.if i really have rheumatism,it proves my age-->i m getting old.LOL

heard that results is going to be out tml.damn scared sia!!!hope it is all fine and nv pull DOWN my GPA...hope it PULLS UP!!!!

alrights.shall go sleep now as i m on 'morning shift' again ALONE!

today was another boring day again.woke up,had breakfast and back to doing household chores again.actually at first is just wiping of the floor.after tat,i went back to read my book 'the last song'.the second time i read and i can still cry at the part when the dad is dying.haiz..then half way through the book,receive a call from my aunt whom fetch my grandma to the clinic, that my grandma had fainted and ask us to hurry cook some porridge for her while my uncle fetch her home.she seems weak when she reach home...so in the end the whole family begin to 'supervise' her.i even read my book beside her bed just in case she need anything,while my aunt do her stuff...when my aunt is back,i went to my parents room to continue reading,as i can't possibly cry in front of my grandma for just a book right.lol...so after finish reading,i went to prepare dinner ingredients,followed by ironing of clothes.after that was about 4plus and i did not take any lunch.so i ate a super heavy tea-time meal.followed by using of computer since i got nothing to do.lol..and now i was ordered or specifically picked to be the one on 'shift' tml morning when none of my parents are in and i have to supervise my grandma.i m ok with doing this but then one thing make me irritated...i was reminded duno how many hundred times over the same thing--> to wake up early,by my parents and aunt....do i look so irresponsible?

o wells...watever...i dun give a damn la...i confirm will wake up early no matter wat.will try my best...but is like wth la..i hate it when pple keep reminding me of stuff that i will do,but then they think like as if i cannot do it or wat so ever.is like dun trust me or wat la...damn pissed,which also reminded me of another issue-->when doing housework,my sis was told to do something and she nv talk back,she was like praised or 'loved' cos she do it,then when i volunteer without asking(just because i know the person is sick or unwell and my sis dun even notice),it was like being taken for granted.-_-...i guess no one just understand me...everytime just see the surface or wat...is like i actually care alot and all...like worry for pple and etc just that i dun say it out..and pple think as if i m heartless??

pfft....give up la...just rot during the holidays la...like watever i do..i just look like i m not a filial child or grandchild.maybe i should just live my life for myself?(which i noe is a damn wrong thinking and i confirm will not do it)

haiz.this few days really alot of things happen and make me think alot.damn...really man...pple are enjoying holidays but yet i seems to be dreading holiday...argh...


if i were to show trust in you,it means that i have 100% of that trust in you.however,once u betrayed it,you will never have that trust again

saw another video of star king.Super Junior Leeteuk VS Eunhyuk pillow fight...damn funny..haha

wah...today have been raining for practically the whole day.i m feeling super cold.like freezing le la...this kind of weather really makes pple fall sick easily...awhile hot awhile cold...damn jia lat.

even though today is still raining,i still went to give tuition,which i came back feeling pissed...i wonder if i should continue giving tuition anot lor...i gave a tuition which is of the same time as the travelling time that i took to go his house and go home,in the end he is not appreciative at all...wth man...the mum is like so pai seh and trying to make up to me...but he is not giving a shit damn on it.and some more i m teaching him at a low rate...wth...

had a really strange dream last night.but was a nice dream...haha...if it can continue i dun mind.lol...

tml i plan to make sushi and pack cupboard...though i wonder when will i be able to do that cos i have not bought any ingredients for sushi...lol..see if tml got rain or if got mood to step out of house.hehe...even if i go also only cook for myself to eat.lol

can't wait for friday to come!going out with the batch 13 and 14 guitar mates for steamboat!!!yay!!haha...confirm damn fun de...talking abt cca...should i get my testimonial from my officer?

today woke up slightly earlier than usual...to watch video together with my sis using itouch on the bed...but i m totally not enjoying it at all...cos i m having dry eyes and the construction outside is pissing me off.lol.the construction is like starting since 8am,and i always cannot have a good sleep after that.and i m not sure issit because of that,i felt sleepy ALWAYS.haha...really pig sia...

after tat went to have tuition.tiring.and maybe because of the lack of sleep,was kind of pissed by the tutee today.lol.actually honestly speaking la.though it is super poorly paid, but at least kind of can enjoy and slack there.the mum was kind of nice.haha.had a specially brewed green tea for me.was awesome.lol...not bad to me...hehe..and always when the mum is around,we always talk non stop.kind of suprised that the tutee actually said that he rather i teach than other pple.haha...guess maybe i was too lenient on him?lol

then when i back home,log on to facebook and saw comments-->back to cca stuff again...argh...y always like tat man...haha..cannot describe how i feel just now.but after talking to my senior,kind of let off abit.haha..maybe i worry or think too much.all of them is asking me to chill..LOL...but... 大哥不愧是大哥.just a while solve my worries and promise to settle my problems.lol...he is my 大哥大!lol..really lor...i respect him alot..cos of the way he do some stuff..though sometimes i kind of get scared cos when he is angry...u really feel like running 100000000km away...lol...exaggerating,but super scary.his face black,all of us shut totally...lol..even i this kind of talkative mouth also suddenly just stone.haha.but really kind of glad to have him around to solve problems whenever i meet anything...haha..too bad he not my bro sia!if not i confirm stick on him ah...haha...fight or wat also can...lol...now it makes me really wan to have a brother but is 100% impossible.lol.if all my cca seniors are my siblings 就好了.they always brighten up my day no matter wat...awwww!!!i gonna miss them sooooooooooooooooooo much!!!

as the blog are getting more and more wordy as i have not been adding videos and pics,shall end off today with a short clip of star king, with Super Junior SungMin, 2am JoKwon and Shinee JongHyun singing together with a talented boy with slight disabilities singing my love!the whole christmas specials is worth watching:)

today wasn't in the mood to step out of the house...have been out for a week..somemore also not feeling well..so in the end i never go for cca..heard that there is only about 10pple turn up.so pathetic!lol...but i think i noe why...the bond of the cca is gone...OMG...damn sad...i wonder issit cos of our batch that never handle well therefore this thing happen?i m not so sure...haiz...

well...for my case...now not keen in going cca have 2 reasons...one is that the seniors are gone...then our batch are majority going for attachment..so is like...no one is around anymore?then for the juniors...they really like heck care dun care mood make me damn sian..the committee it self is like that man!wat do u expect from the members if the committee is not bonded or even not well communicated...i really duno wat to say...whose fault?!i really feel like as if i m a failure.i cannot do much stuff cos i m not incharge any more...i dun wan to care to much if not they say i like...haiz...CONFUSED!!!

i realise i have been sleeping for like super long these days...even though i like sleep at 1am daily(not early but also not that late),i will only wake up or drag myself off the bed at 11plus 12..the temptation of sleep and bed is just so shiok...if can dream abt good dream even better...talking about tat,i dreamt about me myself having only one leg..the other leg amputated...but i cannot really remember the details...is quite fantasy type i think...but..quite scary to think of it...and i woke up crying...super weird to dream this stuff...haiz...

today went to teach tuition again...almost late as i woke up at 12plus,had to prepare and ate own brunch within 15min,bathe and rush out of house by 1pm and reach there in time only...was kind of tiring to teach...i duno y...lol..these days i like becoming a elderly already..everything all do slowly..holidays are making me lazy!!!

then before going home,i talk to the tutee mum,which is also my godaunt for nearly an hour...lol..talk and talk non stop...lol...university entry la...my future la..blah blah blah.hear le also scared.

lol..then back home,i started to continue to download videos for my sis itouch(or rather i m also sharing with her...cos i m also paying)..till now only loaded 7episodes of autumn concerto..damn slow sia!

tml is wednesday...a cca day...but i have no mood to go because i have been out for the past 1 wk and teaching so many tuitions...moreover i m not really feeling tat well and majority of my clique pple are not turning up...how?should i go or not...haiz...shall see how tml...

haiz...i really have nothing to do at home man..even if i on my com...i like staring blankly at it.i have no dramas and varieties to watch,no manga or comic that i can read,no games to play,and even facebook also doesn't interest me now...wth...

woke up early today to accompany my grandma to the clinic as she is complaining of itch for the past few days...and was suspected that maybe there is some bug biting my grandma?i not sure...as i dun feel anything at all...haha...shall disinfect the house then:D

hmm...wat should i do now?maybe i should take a nap-_-

read finish the last song.it was awesome!i cried at the part when the dad is dying.it is really sad man...i wonder if this kind of things really happen in real life...the character in the story,Ronnie,was really strong...and also pitiful...duno how to describe her life.everything about her change in a summer..it is really...

alrights...this is just a short post as i have to go for my lunch cum dinner before heading of to the concert...lol..the only thing that make me excited is only SHINee.lol..

just finished watching brilliant legacy..not bad!no harm watching for korean show fans...lol...finished the drama...kind of in a day?haha...but is really chiong and chiong de...lol..of course the usual me...i skip parts.but i still can understand the drama la.lol

read half of the last song for abt 2hrs.not bad..though some part is abit lengthy.can't wait for the movie to be out!!shall continue reading before sleeping...hmmm...wat show should i watch next?

went out with sis today to have a feast and also to get my dad's present.

we first went to heartland to eat sakae tea time buffet...the menu really change a lot la...some sushi variety that i wanted they remove already...sad lor...now i got even lesser variety of sushi to choose from.but their buffet got like new 'rule' la..like can eat all $1.99 plate and a $3.99 and $5.99 plate...those dishes are more of new...i choose fried ebi sushi and lobster salad sushi...the lobster salad...jia lat...got wasabi inside and i forgot about it..the first piece was ok..then slowly it become worse and worse..nearly puke.lol...but i lost count of how much i ate today cos majority was chatting with my sis and the food are somewat shared among each other.

after that,we took the train down to dhoby ghaut,walk all the way to orchard instead of taking mrt as we are hoping to see if we can see some stuff on the way,but end up just walking straight to taka...walk around the departmental store but got nothing suitable..plan to go ion to take a look but saw kinokuniya(not sure if i spell right).the varieties of books are really alot alot...take me hard time to find the book i wanted-->the last song...until i saw the directory there...waste my time walking round and round when i actually keep passing by the shelf...and my sis got herself a korean dictionary cos she wanted to learn korean.lol.

after tat,we went ion to find my dad gift...i walk until damn tired for the whole day but did not get any gift...super pathetic la...and we went home with bloated stomach,our books,and nothing for my dad...o wells...just cook a sumptous meal for my dad this sat then:D

just got home from cca and had a shower.tired and having a headache now which i have no reason y i m feeling so...maybe cos i waited for the bus for too long?just now waited for 40min just to get a bus...super duper long wait sia...

gonna pack my cupboard and computer table tml.totally in a mess...and i m suppose to pack them like a week ago?my mum have been nagging at me for the past few days for not keeping the mess..lol..and i m not even bothered about it!

weather is freaking hot sia...and all my frens that are overseas,no matter those in japan,london,china and etc all say they are freaking cold...damn...and worse...i m growing horizontally!but with this kind of weather i totally dun feel like jogging or exercising at all...

going out with sis tml for a feast...sinful right?!when i was just complaining about growing horizontally..how contradicting...

talking abt cca...today is really awesome!haha...at first was feeling quite bored...cos only 4 seniors turn up..but not a while later all the seniors came back!!YAY!!and we are having a 2hr bickering session with only abt half an hour of practice time in the middle...totally love it..haha..but if in the past(when i have the position) i will confirm feel stress abt pple not practicing..but o wells...i m now JUST A MEMBER...i shall not care too much if not..just enjoy my last one sem with pple in GC before i m off for attachment!!

going to play some games now before sleeping:D

got a scare just now...cannot log on to my user of the com la...scary sia!i like my computer!!!lol...yesterday was just working fine.just updated and shutdown,then today when on the com turn out like tat. i restart my computer for a few times but still the same thing...jia lat sia...then i call the HP service centre. the customer service officer was so damn nice.haha...he going to call back to check on my com tml again. HP customer service is really awesome. that time something happen to my diskdrive, i went down service not more than one day the person called me and tell me say that they will DELIVER my laptop to my house.so nice la!i dun even need to find time to go down to the service centre which is so damn far. i guess with this kind of customer service they confirm can get alot of loyal customers.lol.

due the the shock that i have, i m making backup copies into a hard drive then i m off to sch for cca!!kind of looking forward to the gossiping time:D

wah...really damn super duper bored at home man!life super miserable.lol.totally nothing to do.now i already finished watching all the dramas and videos that i wanted to watch and i already have no other shows to watch.is like no shows that i m interested to watch.even if there is,the show also haven finish airing(full drama ep is not out) so i dun plan to watch...

crap...haiz...shall go pack my stuff then..tml is another cca day!

i really like as if got nothing to do and keep blogging for the whole night.lol.duno wat the hell i m doing man.lol.just finished watching The Notebook. well...it was nice.but not as how I expected. I thought i will be like loving the movie that much that i will keep watching but somehow that is not the case. hmm...just that the ending was kind of sad.the elderly couple pass away together,holding hands on the hospital bed(hopefully wat i interpret was right:P)..kind of touching don't u think?

haha.my mind have been damn blank that it can go to different extremes in thinking about stuff.super retarded and super crazy.shall not say anything and shall keep in in my heart:Dhehe...

time to sleep!


“我喜欢你。。。你明明不是我喜欢的那个人，但是我就是喜欢你。”

though is kind of a little late to watch now...haha..just finished watching avatar online.damn cool.regret not able to watch it in 3D at the theatres. too bad...haha..at least i can get to watch them online.lol..kind of cool.though it is more like a fantasy and unable to happen in real life.lol..

wat should i watch next man..damn BORED!


"Sometimes you have to be apart with someone you love. But that doesn't mean you love them any less."

damn boring at home...currently jobless.haha...but i guess i should be not finding any more jobs as from wat my sis say,usually pple dun wan hire pple for only a month (unless u noe the boss) and it is quite true la..cos i saw some of the criteria for the jobs...usually at least 2-4mths. o well,i shall just rot at home then.lol.maybe pack some stuff or something,concentrate on my tuition and perhaps cca?

just finished 海派甜心 an hour ago.not bad la...quite funny...but i guess it will be a show that i watch once and maybe will not repeat watching again? hmm...now duno wat movie can i watch...still searching...

shall continue to search for videos:D


“事情往往都不会发生在你的预料之中，结果往往意想不到，但是这就是你的命运，永远都逃不了。”

i duno whether to feel happy or sad now..

did i make the correct decision 3 yrs ago?

will my life have a complete twist if i were to make the other decision?

would my life be better or worse then?


somehow i just think that wat i did last yr was a complete waste...

went to try out for a job in the clinic today...but when i look at the application form i kind of stone there...cos the form looks very 'formal'..most likely going to be hiring for full timer,and somemore there is clinic all around singapore, thus i might not be given the place tat i wan. so instead i went home..and watch my 下一站的幸福 that i have left since yesterday..the drama was quite nice afterall...at least it make me change my views on vaness...cos actually initially i dun really like him much:Phehe..

just now just went to send xin yuan off...took en ling's car to go airport and go home..haha..like both journey either scold other driver or curse and swear at someone...lol...fun time la..though only like short 2 hrs?haha...like auntie's gathering lor..talk damn loud like market like tat..haha..on car like full blast mode.meet xin yuan also talk like full blast...whole airport so damn quiet...everyone can hear our convo liao..lol..too bad one 'auntie' not around cos she herself is in bangkok..and we nv send her off..haha..七缺一啊！！哈哈！

P.S to xin yuan:
WE WILL MISS YOU ALOT OK!!!COME BACK SOON!!!Really miss you alot when u are not around...those outings which u organise majority of them, studying together even though we are different course in poly..sometimes random sms because we are feeling down.but now cannot sms already..at least for these 4 months..cos u in china...impossible to fly and meet each other right..lol...and talking abt tat..guess u noe wat question we wan ask u just now with our full blast volume right..haha..but hope maybe one day u can tell us?lol:P
last of all, BON VOYAGE!

I duno why...but the more i hear this song...i kind of love it more...

after waking up early in the morning, me and my sis was lazy to get out of the house so instead of watching valentine's day in the early afternoon, me and my sis played the whole day of viwawa.lol...

went to get a haircut today...suddenly feel like as if my head was released of a lot of burden!lol..like last time my head damn heavy like tat.haha...went to layer my hair and cut my fringe.lol...but then it seems like majority of my white hair is exposed again.lol.

busy day tml...shall try out if i can get a part time job and also...maybe get a swim suit.after tat going to go airport to send xin yuan off...she is going to china for 4 months...so this means that our sec sch clique outing going to stop temp?lol...

alrights...going to play viwawa again!!

YES!!exams are finally over...wee!!!flying to the moon...haha...though the last paper ended badly,but o well,fate already sealed.wat can i do?just wait for my results to come to me lor...hope it is flying with colours to me...lol

today finally got a break after ALL exams...went out to watch dear john..haha...not bad movie la...quite nice..duno how to describe the movie..only 2 words:not bad.lol.while watching the movie i saw another preview of nicholas sparks movie: the last song.seems nice man!haha..gonna buy the book tml if possible:D

talking about that, i m going to watch valentine's day with sis tml!!anticipating...wonder if it is nice.alrights!shall play mahjong!end off with preview of the last song:D