super tired this few days...every time wake up and go school damn tired....yawning and yawning,sleeping on bus...really like a pig sia...school lesson very hectic a lot of things to do...practical lessons which is so difficult to do and usually delay our time to go home.wats more doing practicals which make you smell very PUNGENT and 'NICE SMELLING' fumes, making you feel nausea for the whole day.

i realise i having short term memory or early age dementia...keep forgetting a lot of things.things i need to do, things i need to say, things i need to ask..brain is really damn bad now..must be eating too much of vitamin D.LOL

today got some study trip briefing....wonder which one to go...japan is fun and nice,no project and stuff..kind of short,but the only thing is because of the cost..i cannot afford so much la...just basic needs already so expensive,i don't even know what can I do...like shopping confirm de ma...need at least 500 dollars...next is china,though is cheap,but some schedule i don't really like la..cannot ta han..go there do fyp somemore...sch no lab ah..lol...talk to dad and mum about it..but no specific reply.don't know la..confuse...

Finally...First day of staying whole day at home after school started...Busy schedule in school...Hardly reach home before sun set.

Well, yesterday is kind of the most relaxing day and slacking day I had. At first, I was supposed to have an one hour of marketing lecture from 9-10am, followed by a med. chem tutorial at 4pm-5pm (due to the lab briefing for med. microbio.,we do not have practical for that module for that day). So, this means that I will have 6 hours of break in the middle of the lessons. I actually planned on thursday that I should just go home and rest or something yesterday(friday), but just happen to talk and talk about it with singyi, then talk about food...Long story...Haha..Then we planned to have porridge buffet at marina square then go back to school for the tutorial. However, yesterday, the med. chem. tut was push forward to 10-11am. Many people did not turn up as they thought the tut will be in the afternoon and missed the marketing lecture...Suay for them...Attendance marked absent for that day. The tut was delayed too...Our plans to slowly take bus down have to be changed to MRT as by the time we reach the buffet will be over.

The porridge buffet was really nice...Maybe also because I have not eat porridge for a long period of time. The dishes are kind of delicious too.Regretted that I never take photos of it.LOL. After lunch, we have nothing to do...Cause there is no more lessons in the afternoon. I actually planned to go home and watch yi nan wang last ep. So me and singyi took bus to bishan. The bus journey was long,air con on the bus super nice.We were tired so we kind of sleep for the rest of the bus journey after talking for a moment.Very comfortable lor.Haha.Then, we alight,walk around J8 and I suddenly don't feel like going home early,so we went macs to eat a icecream,then start to anyhow take bus.Haha..Took a few buses till about 6plus as both of us need to be home for dinner...In the end we just talk and talk the whole day on the bus.Lol..Because we have concession so can anyhow take bus. Kind of shiok...Now buses are a place that me and singyi can hang out to talk le.Lol.We always have problem planning where to go to sit and rest cause leg tired.

After I go home,feel very sian,so just watch videos,last ep of yi nan wang and monster vs alien.Not bad la...

Alrights...I m saying grandmama story already. Think people read le also damn sian and tired.Haha..Brain not functioning well la. Now also kind of addicted to one FT island song...Not really a fan of them,but just love this song:




What should I do now...Do tutorials or reports?Super no mood...Haha..Maybe shall watch some videos then consider...Hehe:P

haven't been blogging much as sch work is practically alot!lecturers have been giving a lot of stress and pressure.new kind of examinations, more stringent assessment of our work..everything we do is graded and of high percentage.somemore alot of work is on topics that are covered previously in yr 1 and yr 2 sem 1...nearly return everything back to the teacher that taught us.even when today i were to do the 'simple' inorganic chemistry questions during pharm manufacturing tech also can get stuck.spent 3hrs on 6 rather long question.brain cells almost get wipe out.

next...stress from cca...i really wonder did i make the right decisions in doing all the stuff inside.everyday thinking what other stuff i have not done,what things i should ask others to do and hand in by what dateline,find pple to perform for outside performance..really tired of all this.maybe the first thing that i decided wrong is to become the president of the cca...i think i really don't know how to handle this kind of situations.always worrying about what others think and try to accomodate them. they can just give excuses and complain.what about me?who compromise with me or help me to solve all this problems.i really feel like looking for someone suitable to do this/discuss abt this,which is most probably the vice presidents, but they are always either absent, or when i talk to them,they are not paying attention or forget what i say.i really don't know what to do...

mood down to the max.catch some sleep,hopefully feel better tml.

today is the first day of sch...damn crap sia the timetable.long break in the middle...feel damn sleepy for the whole day..keep yawning and yawning...

got to start work hard already...first day of sch already get scare from teacher..now my lab is like as if the sec sch or jc student having spa/science practical examinations.everything is graded,our drug product,written report which is done beforehand or on the spot,and if i not wrong,the technique of us doing the experiment is also graded.crap.worse thing is that we cannot ask our friends how to do or wat so ever,if not both will get zero for that prac.omg...somemore the module is like all prac,exams and test is all about prac.faint sia...

after today i should be posting much less often due to the busy sch days and also the workload and the tiredness from the sch...draining off so much of my energy...and wats more,most of my modules are related to wat i have learnt in yr 1 and yr 2 sem 1!jia lat...majority return to teacher le lor...duno how to survive...haiz...

shall continue watch my 霹靂MIT as i duno when i can watch more videos since now sch have started...bye!

i really wonder what is the problem with me or how my brain works.sometimes i really hate myself.i duno why i behave this way or actually how did i behave like tat...why can't i act rationally.why my brain cannot think faster.why do i always regret after doing certain things.why can't have a better temper.why m i born like this.why i cannot make a better decision and always do the right things...

why why why??!!

shall not blog anymore for today as i m really not having a great mood...unhappy or still pondering about something that happen today.did i do the right thing?shall i stop thinking/brooding over it and let it pass...haiz...what should i do...

today afternoon slack whole day.haha.woke up early in the morning thought i going to turn blind cause saw something on my left eyeball..tried removing with fingers but failed.in the end keep rinsing with water and eyedrop then finally removed it. priscilla's gift

enling's gift

off to sleep now.need wake up early for a game of badminton!

today mood very down/low..totally no mood to do any stuff...woke up late today,then went to sch...met xin yuan to do up some gifts..maybe will post up the pics tml...then later practice guitar..but everyone practically got no mood..perhaps is last wk of the holidays thats y..

next wk sch reopen..dread alot!this week the whole wkday book...wkend sis wan me go out..no thanks!my final 2 days of rest...wan to make use of the best of it..lol

yes!i finally reach the 70ep of 魔女18號...left 10ep more..tml chiong ah!haha...

today blog kind of short..cos nothing to post and a little tired...end with a 魔女18號 song that i think not bad...though the video is abit...haha

wah..so crap sia..just saw the timetable.have lessons from 9am-6pm for mon and thu,9am-5pm for tue and fri...wed is till 2pm or 3pm but have cca so most probably sch kind of end that day at 9pm.so crap..none of the days i can go home early to rest or something...i still expect a day to go home early...in the end like tat..somemore in the middle got long break..wonder wat to do..haiz...

this 2 days chionging a 80ep show called 魔女18號. today chiong abt 30ep..damn tiring..but kind of sad la..cos keep skipping.very funny at the start..now more of sad.haha...maybe next time i go buy the vcd and watch. actually plan to watch more shows like 紫玫瑰, 痞子英雄, 終極三國, 敗犬女王 and 霹靂MIT.but i bet i got the time to watch cause school is starting in a wk!!:( and i have 4 more books to read and return cos i bet i will have time to read when sch starts.somemore next wk i will be out for the whole of wkdays..left the wkends to pack and do stuff...oh well...shall just do wat i can do then...

shall go sleep now and see wat time i wake up tml to plan if i wan jog...and if possible pack some stuff and watch a little of 魔女18號.

today went to school at 11 to play badminton with all the cca friends and seniors.lol.i played for about 2hrs.only had abt a 10-15min break in the middle.have alot of fun man.haha.but me and jin wen like the whole time attacking pple...especially me...like everyone that played with me have at least being hit by the shuttlecock once...namely the head.lol.how i wish can have another session.but i bet immpossible cause most probably by then already sch reopen.

talking about sch reopen...haiz...damn fast sia...one more wk left only.have already passed 1mth and 1wk of holiday.everyday damn busy.going in a rush.pple like resting during holiday.i like doing alot of stuff...didn't really get to rest.only rest like last tue.then like duno still got when i will be free...how i wish i have a day to be free...only doing stuff i want...nothing related to cca and sch..really need a break.

this few days there have been something wrong with me...start to stone damn often.just stare at something for duno how long unless pple talk to me.brain have been occupied by alot of matters and details.dun really noe how to pace and organise them out.

need go sleep already..going out early tml...

random posts of the videos i found and like abt fame..hehe






songs only:

i m starting to love the guitar practice more and more nowadays. enjoy the crapping with the seniors...though being bullied more and more in there.haha...really enjoy the time we all practice the pieces together,and the smiles that is on everyone's face everytime we managed to finish one new piece for the first time.

really hating the technology nowadays.everything like against me...lol..hard disk giving me problems.wth man!reformat so many times...give up le lor...and have been sick of replying emails and checking..so many work to do..not like i have whole day internet and email access...lol...

alrights..just a short post...need to continue replying emails and forwarding:(

suay today sia...everywhere aching..today wake up...think is my sleep posture, my neck ache like mad...go sch play badminton with jin wen...then twisted my ankle and kind of fell..stand up thought nothing continue play.in the night reach home then start aching.hope is nothing serious...

in the end canceled the outing with singyi tml cos headache and leg ache..lol...feel damn bad to singyi...SO SORRY!next time out together again ah....

today in club room after badminton got some time...talk to jin wen about some stuff...made me think alot sia...haha...my brain really going to fast in some stuff...one day shall open a agency...do all the counselling and consultation.haha...

now busy doing my consultation on MSN.haha.continue next time

today went out with singyi and baba to watch fame in the theatres.not as bad as i expected it,as heard from the people talking abt it in sch. kinda of inspirational...what is success all about...didn't really get the story that much.but i guess the story is about a group of students who wanted to succeed, to have fame in their arts talents, where of course there are pple that fail and succeed...life are just full of ups and downs...

after that, baba left and me and singyi went to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs...the movie was okay.kinda funny.regretted not bring jacket.feeling cold for the whole 2 movies, freezing in there with teeth chattering after coming out from the movie.lol.

we then proceed back to hougang mall...usual hang out place..haha..go have dinner and again back to library to look for books.first time reading so much books during the holiday..all chinese somemore...think something must be wrong with my brain.lol..and we also as usual,cannot find a nice place to chat, and when we get the mood to talk alot alot,it is time to go home.so suay lor.haha

this holiday damn broke...every day go sch and spent my meals out,going out most of the time..haha...just calculating,i have been out so far for the whole one month of my holidays...cca,teaching tuition and out with singyi..haha..practically home to sleep only..cannot remember how many meals i exactly eat at home..kind of miss my mum's cooking.haha.and today just counted.i have watched 13movies in abt 3months.broke the record sia..haha..think abt one movie per wk lor.and nearly all watch with singyi.no wonder both of us so broke.lol

just now just watch step up 2..ya.damn long ago show but didn't get to watch it.lol.the dance so cool lor..haha...xian mu all the dancers.haha.

now damn addicted to this song


actually wanted to post other version..but the embed got problem..haiz...duno y lor..this song like stuck in my head liao..lol...

alrights..shall end here..:D

very tired today...woke up damn early to go for meeting..in the end nearly everyone was late..lol...purposely delay the time till like tat...

haha..my day pass as usual, attending cca the whole day, except that i have a meeting in the afternoon only...

lol..reach home kind of late today...because doing publicity stuff in clubroom. now i m starting to love the bonding time with the members in the cca more and more..lol..having great fun...think will be kind of sad when all of us graduated and parted..haiz...sad...i will confirm miss the time where all of us crap and play together,make fun of each other, gossiping and sharing secrets, the offing of lights signal to chase everyone out...the shouting, cursing and swearing of each other and the 'suaning' of each other...really enjoy the time...even though i m kinda wear out from all the responsibilities,but i believe that all this stuff genuinely worth it.

after i bathe, start to find alot of guitar songs..haha..find alot of songs together with jin wen..all the strum and sing and stuff....gonna meet her tml to continue playing..haha..all this cause of jesline's motivation lor..haha..cos us to wan to learn wishes even more..lol.

shall end with some of the guitar songs that i found. nights!