just edited the blogskin due to some error in the previous one.

BUT!!!i lost my links.crap.only left those that i can really remember or viewed recently...sianz...

omg!i finally finished watching the drama...actually can finish even earlier,but half way my sis joined in thats y i have no choice but to watch without skipping(which is wat i normally do)...aww...so sweet man!so cool lor...ahh!!!haha...going crazy already...shall go check price tml.think i can calm down my emotions soon...



recently again in love with FT Island's First Kiss...cause of the drama...haha...and makes me wan to learn the song,but always till the prechorus then stuck.jia lat.haha...must persevere!hope can finish the whole song..cos see the guitarist play damn shiok.lol

nowadays i having K-craze..look at new bands and stuff...and starting to fall in love with those music bands...oh god...haha...all the guitar and keyboard.crap sia...haha...suddenly wan to focus on music,but have to study.

haiz.getting more and more forgetful nowadays also.duno where is my tuner..duno where i left it...shall continue to look for it..TUNER WHERE R U!!!

was just doing my med chem tut just now...totally stare at my paper. and my paper stared back at me...i totally duno how to do...with all my graphs, my results just do not tally!WTH!is like i duno how to do cos i nv pay attention/dun understand, or is there a problem with the question or wat.damn pissed.somemore doing the work at this time of the night-1am!and i m having headache and feeling tired.well, more or less i will try do them tml night or some other day. haiz.have been wasting my time for duno wat stuff this few days. i should not be busy as nearly all my projects are done. but why i still feel that i have alot of things to do?!

today just received the results/posting of my IAP next year. got attached to SGH for 2 times(some other pple got 2 different placing in the 2 slots). well, first of all i did not choose hospital as my first choice, but even if i was posted there i m ok with it la...dun feel much about it.lol.just abit worried,wondering if i can cope in the hospital. because hospitals are usually dealing with more important/severe patient.hope i will be able to do my task properly.LABELS!

next,the pathetic and irritating FYP.graded for our yr!damn...seems tough to me...if we were to work and do the project,when on earth can i find the time.i will be so damn tired and drained. somemore presenting alone to directors and lecturer?!OMG!!hope i dun have some nervous syndrome that day>_<

NEVER MIND!ONE MORE YEAR!I CAN DO IT!!!

keep wanting to blog something,but whenever i just login to blogger i duno wat i want to write already.lol...just tat so many things happen this few days.but too tired to say much and duno where to say from. haiz...i need to go take a break now..

3.30am now!and i still not sleeping...all because of the MARKETING FOR LIFE SCIENCEs 2 report. crap lor...i like typing and typing,editing and editing since 1030pm till now....still thought I will have an easy job but...haiz...

I must go sleep now already...continue update tml...in case mum wake up!!

today return home early after an hour of lecture...duno y after reading the papers, feel sleepy, then went to sleep.slept since 130pm till 330pm. practically like 2 hours. but i duno y i still feel so tired. after that i went to wash up, feel more refreshed but like have a slight headache. this few weeks have been having this kind of feelings. like no matter how much i sleep also like not enough.last time i also not so tired easily.like after the wkend rest,more or less i will feel energised at least for mon. but then i now no matter sleep how much still as tired...haiz...hope is nothing serious/some disease:X

was watching some doctor show just now.wonder if this kind of reality really happen in the hospitals, with doctors doing this kind of means and ways just to get the highest position. that is so mean. i mean as a doctor, everyone should not be working just because of the position, but to help people and save their lives. doesn't mean that you got the highest rank means you got the best ability. the best doctor should be the one that really care for the patient, and bring warmth to the patient....alright...starting to make more and more no sense....

mum have been starting to nag at me..on my studies...kind of a long time nv receive kind of nagging...i guess it was because of my grades dropping thats y she think it this way...last time she wasn't worried about my studies as she think that i placed expectations and enough pressure on my self about school work. however, i m starting to slack now.like watever i do,high chance i m not putting much heart into it...y??!

i think perhaps i have no goals for me to work towards. i tried hard to find something that maybe can start off my interest back into working hard to my goals. but i just couldn't...now the only way i can persuade myself: have a high gpa so that i can go to university or at least look nice on resume???

today really like super sick.just woke up from a 2 hour nap and thought i will feel better. in the end,i ended up with worse sore throat and block nose.addition of another slight headache. i guess my body is telling me to start taking a rest and sleeping early. but i just couldn't do so. especially if my mind have so many things on

today had med chem presentation.suckx la...alot of questions duno how to answer. feel damn bad as i think like majority is my fault.some questions i should have answered but i didn't. haiz.

today another early day at home.nothing to do...but with my sickness i bet i can do anything also.shall take the chance to recuperate.


once you have broken the trust,you can hardly try to get it back from me

haven been posted for quite a long time as always have a tiring day and by the end of the day i m more or less half dead. nothing to update,as my life is as boring as usual.

have been reading sec sch fren facebook and blog. feel kind of lonely/left out.everyone nearly kept in touch with each other, or at least one or 2 in a clique. but for me, i m like totally out.like no one bother to chat with me and etc. feel so out of the way suddenly...many kinds of thought flow into my mind again.starting to emo.

talking about tat,i m starting to have super large mood swings. i totally have no idea y.argh..hate that kind of feelings.

tml having presentation.shall sleep early.hopefully mood gets better.shall just live in my own world...

today is the first working in kind of a retail pharmacy environment.everything seems to be so unfamiliar.feel so weird standing in the pharmacy.of course,since i m those type of starting starting more keep to myself,i did not serve much customer today,partially because i see the seniors not taking the initiative to help, therefore i also dun really dare to take the first step.only until the end then i kind of warm up a little but too bad i have to go for lessons.learn quite alot from the lecturer today in the pharmacy.like totally re teach us alot of stuff though i nearly forget half of the things.lol

this wk is going to be a hectic wk again.it seems that i have alot of things to do.however,i just duno wat i lack.haiz...

shall go find my things to do list from my bag now...

today,had only ONE lesson in the morning.8.30am.slept at 1 plus 2am yesterday and woke up at about 630am...so kind of practically have 4-5hours of sleep only.though in the morning i do not have much lethargy feeling,but after lesson,i start to feel damn uncomfortable.start to emo and etc.this few days really damn weird.actually more of the past 2 months.kind of have no mood to do alot of things or hang out with pple.i duno y.sometimes i would rather live in my own imagination.perhaps is because of the drug i m taking?i m not sure though.i just feel like cooping myself at home or lay under my blankets.

tml is open house already.the station i m at...belongs to the clinicals track.however,i belongs to the pharmaceutical side.the worst thing still-i m the only person from pharmaceutical track.today's training is kind of awkard cos i m like the only odd one out there.like the lecturers they noe well or even something that is related to their modules.but for me is like ??? i dun even noe wat the hell i m doing.furthermore,my partner was not even present during the training today.she was like roaming around and not listening.haiz.i have no choice but to depend on myself.tml go earlier to see how the other group do.

something is going to happen on wed...hope it really happen..shall not really mention cos i scared when i mention,it is not going to come true.lol...

a few more months...actually to be exact is about 2 more months,exams are coming,i m going to move up to year 3,and my seniors are graduating!omg...i really miss them man.all the fun moments we had together even if i m the one being bullied.i will really miss them alot.they are like the support of me for the past one yr,cheering me up when ever i m down,giving me confidence when i m unsure,bullying me as they think is very fun...omg...how i wish the moment will pause down there and never move on...really miss the committee alot.even though at points of time we are unhappy about each other doings,we still in the end forget about it and get together-forgive and forget.the outings we had together is always so fun...i wonder when will we have our last time together to play...

alrights...i m going to be in this face (-_-) already.damn sleepy.shall go sleep now!

so crap.today i was supposedly not having any lessons.but i still have to go back to school to settle cca stuff.

at first,i thought i have settled and done everything.however,the officer came and give some ideas and comments, which i have to give her the reply.super crap.i was still thinking of passing to the next batch of committee to let them meet the officer.i swear i will try not to step much into the room next time.like stepping on some bomb like tat...make me need to think so much...my brain really kind of lazy to work now

i suddenly think like my management got problem lor...is like...i duno...i seems to be unable to spread leadership job out evenly.today the talk with officer,it sounds like other clubs are doing much better than me.is like...i really duno lor..haiz

this wk and next wk will be a busy week for me.hopefully till end of next wk.i will be somewat freed!yes!really.i m very very excited and anticipating for tat day to come.tat freedom tat i will be having hopefully soon.when can i get them though?

haha...talking abt it..today kind of learn some music theory and guitar skills from naz.lol..nothing to do in clubroom,dun wan go home so learn something lor.haha.at least not a waste to go sch.lol

saw a show with this quote:如果人的记忆只能选择一秒钟的额度，那就是这一刻。

我的那一刻在哪里呢？

damn lame..i have just went nearly to school and just came back home but going to school again later-_-

10am:received sms that there will not be any lessons for this wk.was super happy though abit sian as i in the end still have to go back to sch to settle cca stuff. left all my lessons stuff at home and went out with
1030am:just board the bus
1050am:received sms that i cannot get a video and the amp.so wats the point of me going sch?
11am:received sms that there is lab. have no choice but to alight from bus to go opposite to board and go home. because i need my lab stuff and i nv wear shoes.

haiz..damn sian...lucky i got bus pass.if not i wan kill pple le...now go take a rest first before going back to school:)

just saw one person's blog...feel kind of sad actually,as i have just met her today.but yet she actually kind of have the distant feeling for some time.well,in the sense of which friendship to priortise, because she have too many friends and clique.well, it is quite true for me too(as in the thought of having too many friends). at certain times, when people were to ask you out, your life seems to be so pack because u do not know who to go out with.you really feel like maintaining all friendship but it seems difficult.

well, i dun think i will priortise as whoever friend ask me out and if i m able to make it, i will confirm give up my time to them. however, by reading tat post, it make me feels kind of sad and lonely,one main reason is because i m scared of losing her as a friend, losing my friendship with her. She is actually kind of my friend since long(like pri 5) and we are kind of close(at least before we enter poly/jc life) as we live quite close and hang out often. but it seems tat after we enter poly/jc,we kind of distant out cos of our different timing, school...it seems like no common topic/daily life tat is similar. and from tat post...i duno y but have the institution tat the friendship between us might break someday, most probably when we start entering the working society.

even though as people says, we have to move on,we can continue making new friends and etc, but i m someone who cherish things alot.even some rubbish from somewhere,as long as there is a meaning to it(my own logic),i will still keep it even if pple think it is useless and etc,even when it might rot i will still keep unless maggots grow out of it(ok...kind of gross)...haha...but really...i hope i can still maintain contact and friendship with all the people around me...haha..duno if i m affected by the movie i watched today.even dogs can have such a strong bond.y not humans...ok...it may sounds abit wrong.(anyway mio tv is kind of awesome...though movie is outdated, but some is really historic and nice...worth watching:])

this post is kind of out of point and messy...but..haha...tats wat come out from my brain...duno how to rephrase already...tired i guess?

actually wanted to post a long post for today...cos i bet i will hardly have time to do so as school is reopening tml...damn short man...is like i only practically enjoy 3 days of my holidays.cos majority have to do work. like even now...haiz...

alright..i need go pack my bag for sch and also do work...post other time

today...super no mood to do work, but still did as i HAVE to...forced myself to do..which is the reason y i m still up so late in the night...lol...wat to do..have to face such a weird topic for my project. really cracking my brains out.

afternoon did pharmacotherapy...not as difficult as i expected...haha...as easy as what singyi said...hehe...but i still dilly dally...therefore i m late for tuition...lol...now like getting more and more sick of teaching or working/going out...suddenly feel like cooping myself up at home...haha...something is wrong with my brain recently...

o wells, shall end with a video today!something that i m kind of addicted...haha...kyuhyun is so sweet!