haven't been blogging since a week. alot of things have been coming up in my mind. very confused. I really don't know what is the path in my life that I should take, what really belongs to me, and what should I do to live my life to the fullest. It has always been what I wanted, doing everything in my life the best, helping whoever I can really help if possible. But what I have been doing is blurring up. I am wondering if I have been doing what I can take.

I think I really cannot handle a committee well, don't know how to give out task and orders. A concert is coming up, but yet I have no single idea as to if everything will run smoothly or not. Many request were made from different people, but I do not know how to fulfil them. Now I wish I can quickly step down, from the current position so that I can make my life, or at least my brain easier. Honestly speaking, when I first started the position, I am quite excited or anticipating what is going to take place, thinking that I can finally have a very 'enriching' life in doing all this things. However, when time passes, I start to become stress up by all this matters, probably because I cannot make decisions well or ask others to help me out, thus, making my own life miserable. Perhaps I am just not suitable for this kind of heavy leadership task.

Haiz...workload is also getting more and more, adding on my shoulders. I really wonder if i can tahan till februrary, which is till hand over! I must persevere...I MUST!

Saturday after...nothing to do...shall I start with work?aw...nvm...watch a little video first:P