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200th post!~

2010-10-03T20:16:00.004+08:00

have not been blogging for some time...nothing new each day,either attachment, or at home doing assignment or do journal.finally done with my assignment, but then journal is only half done...shall continue after i finish blogging...

got so much videos to watch!i still left abit of my girlfriend is a nine-tailed fox.gonna watch glee season 2 and wgm...then still got the new hongkong drama that i found..dammit...no time la!

watched abit of inkigayo today...shinee's hello!

actually also wanted to post seven's song..but embedded not available...so i shall post the mv version which just came out not long ago...his girlfriend was the mv's female lead!

and now i still seriously addicted to the 2 songs below,but seven one i still cannot find the version tat i like which i only get to watch once:

and i also duno wat is the problem with me...suddenly go back to hearing old song...westlife's song..lol..seriously something is wrong with me somewhere.

alrights..nothing much to blog and shall stop updating anymore videos here..shall continue my journal so i can finish my drama!

stiff shoulders...

2010-09-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

think i having a damn stiff shoulders now...always been aching for quite some time already.think i need to get salonpas already...dun think going to blog often due to the tiring days...somemore i need time to revise...

2nd week of attachment...starting to get use to it.but i think i m still quite blur at times.need to clear up my head!!

hmm..nothing much to blog recently as life is monotonous.lol...have been watching mischievious kiss...but no matter wat i still prefer the taiwan version.so much nicer.lol

getting high about C.N. Blue again.after watching running man. YongHwa is so smart can...or maybe lucky.haha...admire him more and more...

this song have been on for long time ago.but running man revive it in my brain

not in mood for blogging already.time to sleep!

i miss school...

2010-09-19T17:53:00.002+08:00

i want to go back to school man!! really miss going for lessons alot...

for the past one week have been busy with attachment and was so tiring as compared to school.feels like hell...no time to go out, no time to relax.by the time reach home, after bathing and eating dinner already feel sleepy.wats more i still need to do my assignment!i have been planning to start them since monday night but was not in the mood until today. gonna do up my journal, then go out for dinner...hopefully i can start abit of my assignment by the time i reach home.

have been on a 5 and a half day of work day....half day of course is on sat.but the feeling is still like as if i dun have a break...haiz...

yesterday finished watching the season 1 of glee...one word to describe:A-W-E-S-O-M-E! love the songs very much..

and i also duno y suddenly i thought about fame the movie.lol.

shit.it is abt time for me to get out but i have not started on my journal.haiz

short holidays, sweet holidays!

2010-09-10T00:30:00.003+08:00

finally!all paper over!but attachment is coming!looking forward to it, but seeing the tons of stuff i need to do will sian abit...

today's paper...i duno wat to say.just my brain dun function i guess...wat can i do?just hope can pass...and maybe hopefully score well?after the paper,went for the attachment briefing, then went city hall to meet weix...and she gave me this care bear! add on to the other care bear that i have at my bedside. hehe.

supposed to go to suntec and eat some italian restaurant thingy...but ended up at aston's. ordered my usual combination, then after that we walk to marina square, and back to my fav korean store! bought banana milk, apple cookie, and the biscuit below...

super cute lor...but quantity little..no wonder 90cents only.LOL...after that, we went to macs to have ice cream, had some talk...walk around the mall and saw some stuff that let us think about the past.lol...after tat, we went ps..suppose to go daiso,but i forget that under renovation...haiz...poor memory.so we ended up going to spotlight and weix buy gift for her bf.haha...then until 9plus then we make our way home...had a day totally not according to initial plans.lol

tml another day out with sec sch clique...realize there is a pattern...today go with pri sch fren, tml sec sch, sat poly. haha...progressing up..then sun i go out with colleague or cca frens?lol...

wah...alot of mosquito bites around my whole body...wonder how it bit me when i m usually wearing long pants...haiz...love me too much i guess...the best source of food=me.lol...make me think of the pharm prac notes for the preventive measure for mosquito/insect bite: tuck shirt in pants and pants in socks...i wonder how funny will i look.hehe...

alrights...time to sleep!gotta wake early!

1 more 1 more

2010-09-06T17:37:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes!one more paper to go and here comes FREEDOM!!!

but then attachment is coming soon...kind of looking forward to it and also dun feel like going attachment...wonder how is it like. hope is fun and challenging! haha..

kind of feeling sleepy now...but i can't sleep because i m rushing the proj that is due today.o wells...wat a nice weather and i cannot sleep.haiz.

shall enjoy myself for the 4 days of "holiday" after my exams. alot of pple to meet up, but hard to make time with everyone...shall just try then...why this fri is a public holiday!i wan to do so many things that is at the lowest cost without spending much due to the difference in wkday and wkend/PH day...and my only chance left is this fri, but was taken up as a PH...need to spend more $$ again...

my proj still not done!spending hours to stare at the com with nothing coming to me...

1 down, 4 more to go

2010-08-30T20:04:00.002+08:00

just finished pharm analysis paper today...was ok...at least my brain capacity is slightly better than wat i expected...

was home since abt 3.30pm...ate a heavy tea break and enjoyed my videos till now..we got married for this week was kind of funny...was laughing my heads off...perhaps it is kind of a release from the exam that i just had in the afternoon...

watched glee club...tempt me to want to watch the rest of the ep immediately.but since it is not available, i read the synopsis which was quite detailed...shall watch it when the papers end!.one thing bad abt the catch up tv thing is that only one ep is available per week and once u missed the upload ep in that wk, u can't watch the next one on the catch up tv!

recently was kind of addicted to 2 songs...have been hearing them before i sleep...

argh...i m getting lazy again...pls dun let me be like the common test...slack after the first paper...omg!!!i cannot do this!alright..head to the notes now...pls focus my dear brain!

sick

2010-08-27T23:47:00.002+08:00

have not been blogging often...have been sick these few days, always been sleeping early...

yesterday was my last shift at the village...really enjoy my time there.made some new friends, and learnt many new things. nv regret volunteering..time over there is seriously short.how i wish i had more shift (even though i m under one of those who had the longest shift).

had been trying to study for the past few days.but not fruitful as i m not feeling well,having frequent headaches, ended up sleeping most of my time...nearly half the day i spent on bed, and my finger is also hurting for duno wat reason.haiz.this wk is just totally unlucky for me...just hope i can recover asap,hopefully by tml so i can really focus on studying!

sick sick go away~~~

2010-08-24T23:29:00.002+08:00

have been sick for a few days already..and i have not been recovering since then...how!it is like affecting my study mood...make me keep feeling sleepy...dammit...gonna sleep early again tonight, hopefully can recover betterT_T

today woke up early and went back to sch for lab. spent nearly the entire day there again!only back at home near evening.haiz.my study schedule ruin again!how how how...no time le...

chocopie!!!o god...high cravings for it..just bought a box just now...shall snack it while studying...or when i recover>_<..

feeling sleepy...shall sleep at 12...after sending birthday wishes!

wth

2010-08-23T22:50:00.002+08:00

actually wanted to blog yesterday,but was feeling sleepy and uncomfortable.today wanted to blog...but dun feel any flow becos feeling sick...shall see how my brain works now..

yesterday was my grandma's birthday celebration.but i was in the room straight after i finish preparing all the necessary food cos firstly i m lazy to socialize, secondly i m feeling tired from sleeping late the previous night and waking early to help; and lastly i m having a flu and feeling uncomfortable. so i ended up watching video in the room and fell asleep...was pissed off during the phototaking...my sis expect me do everything for the cam...asked her if need charge the previous night, and she say no as she expect no one will wan use...then when relative ask, she just say have(can't she just say dun have), then no bat, she ask me charge cos she is busy eating...then when they ask when can charge finish she say ask me cos i use the cam the most...is like...i use more cos of proj only...so become i pro in the cam?and pro in using the cam doesn't means i noe how long the cam take to charge right?i seriously have not charged the cam before.is always she charge one...and now become i noe the thing???i totally duno wat happen..so all the faults on that day lies to me, and not going out to socialise also my fault...is like i was studying till late and woke up early to help prepare food that they eat...and their kids can just stay at home and nv come because they need study...their exams are impt but not mine?wth..they can be absent but not me?

went off to sleep early last night because i m feeling sick..but today was even worse...nv get to study at all because i m feeling lethargic...even today too..think i m going to sleep early today again..wats more with sch tml to do lab...all my studying plans gone case already...gonna be behind time!

shall watch a little video before sleeping...

yog yog yog...oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah~~~

2010-08-19T19:05:00.002+08:00

super high mood now...seriously enjoy the shift today, not only because of who is on duty with me but also the patients.lol..damn cute lor some of them...their actions...lol...

in the morning was in the high state of mood when i reach there...but then there is like no prescription at all.so ended up chit chatting and etc, with some prescription on off in, and also snacking of snacks stored up and breakfast ta-paoed from the workplace...after that...duno y...lecturer start talking about handsome guys...and started comparing, and out of a sudden,they spot one thai doctor which interest them...lol..the partner on duty with me was like see till face red lor...lol..the lunch today was awesome!best i had so far there...few types of meals/course to choose from...yummy yum yum:)

few interesting incidents:
1. A patient was backfacing us when we about to dispense. When his friend came out, we "wave" to the person to get him to come forward (name hard to pronounce), and the friend wave back and smile as if we are greeting him...LOL...damn cute la!haha...ended up we go forward to him and talk.

2. 2 patients come in, know each other. one understand english, the other didn't. so we got the friend to translate...funniest thing is...i wonder if we understand what we are talking to each other as we keep going "ya",but then a few times the patient who noe english repeated wat i said wrongly and i corrected...hope they really take them correctly!

3. A patient come in and hand me prescription. I gesture him to sit, and he thought i want to shake hand with him...I should have just shake la..haha...very cute thoughts lor his gesture...thought i wanted to shake hand..hehe

4.was waiting for train with my same shift partner.one foreigner approach us and start talking to us and duno how we 3 became like frens.lol...added each other on facebook..haha..weird way of making new fren,though i duno if i added the right pple as i saw a few with similar names-_-

5. 2 doctors approach me to ask me how to take train to chinatown. i ended up bringing them down..hehe...nice experience!nv did that to someone foreign before...

this work shifts really let me gain alot of things.new frens, and building relationship with lecturers. recap on my drug knowledge, and help in my counselling of patients...it really built my confidence much much more as compared to initial state.nv regret it!

duno y suddenly interested in funny baby videos..some watched before already.haha..some is really cute/funny...some i pity the baby.lol

wang lee hom new album out...like a few songs...for eg:

but i guess i will feel bored of the song quite soon...

finally find another version of park bom's you and i...like both version:)
original version:

sunmin's version:

alrights...shall stop videoing for a moment...time for me to study:(

wasting my time

2010-08-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

i have seriously wasted my time today...

11.30am: woke up from the sweet dream that i have last night
12nn:using of computer
1pm:preparing and having lunch
2pm: read newspapers and magazine
3pm:start revision
3.30pm:doze off...on and off...even dozing off also so not in peace
4.30pm:found the motivation to work
5.30pm:bed is so nice...lie on it awhile....end up zzzz....
6.30pm:woke up from nap,went to bathe
7pm:dinner plus tv
8pm:use computer and reply...

now is 9pm and i m blogging...1 more hour to glee..think i will plan to watch it on tv, since i have quite a no. of videos to clear this weekend but i have to celebrate my grandmother's birthday at MY HOUSE...crap man...hate doing up the clearing at the end, and have to bear with the bad mood again. always happen after any celebrations due to the mess left behind.

shall continue my revision..only an hour left before i watch glee and sleep...got to have energy for tml shift...

daebak!

2010-08-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

finally finished my caramel snack after like 3 days...picture of it is as below:

seriously delicious man!to me...the caramel...just nice...the pack is so small.cannot bear to finish all up..but i have to if not it will spoil or have ants crawling around.but one thing maybe not good about it is that it have alot of crumbs...

o god...i m craving for so many heaty food,but exams is near the corner, and i m only abt 1/5 done...how how how...temptations sia...

the 3 days 'holiday' after my paper i m going to seriously enjoy myself.i think i m going to shop around...really go shopping...for clothes...first time in my life i have craving to shop for CLOTHES!lol..

feeling tired and feverish..think i m going to sleep early for the first few times in my life after i enter poly..

glee!

2010-08-16T01:01:00.002+08:00

went out today with 2 of my cca besties...walk around and window shop, ate seoul garden...my appetite seriously went much worse than before.haiz.

recently started to find quite a no. of korean food to eat, esp snacks.lol.found one at marina square. called shine korea supermarket if i not wrong.bought another snack again!yay!haha...tried the sample and love this man...kind of sweet..nice taste!lol..shall eat while revising some day.but the kimchi seriously dun suit me...feel uncomfortable after tasting one mouth...guess is due to the vinegar that i hated the most:(

talking on my revision, i have not started on any because i woke up late, went out, when i m back, i was busying watching video and play games till now...haiz...

recently have been watching glee...haha..lean on me suddenly come back to me..hehe...

time to sleep...hopefully have a fruitful revision tml...

tired

2010-08-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

woke up super early today...like 5am in the morning just to go for my shift...damn tired sia...got to sleep early tonight if not cannot ta han...today was quite busy...and some mistakes on my own.pissed with myself, as i know this is not a mistake that i should make and i can really avoid.just wonder wat happen to me today.haiz...lunch was not as nice as dinner, only thing that is nice to me is the 2 fishballs and rice...lol

did not do much stuff today after return home.finally change my card!yes!

tml going out again...haiz..think i having my mood swing again..keep thinking about some stuff...make me regret.grades, friendship...haiz...

exams is coming up,but i haven't even started, besides the time i "studied" during shift...which is only one chapter..

trying to find some songs...but cannot find the full one because the album is not out!:(omg..when can i load the full thing?

enjoying my life!!

2010-08-11T21:57:00.002+08:00

have been slacking for quite some time ever since the end of the sch last wk...not going out with frens, then maybe slack at home or go for shift...cannot really remember the details of the stuff, and lazy to like type out all of wat i did, so i dun bother...

tml is the only day in this wk that i m at home resting...suddenly feel like just lying on my bed and sleep for 24hr...duno y...haha...have been feeling tired recently,especially when watching tv...i seriously wonder y...and i m having worse and worse memory...hopefully is just nothing serious and will recover by latest next wk!

this wk shall be a catch up time with all my friends(hopefully if it is possible), then after that...think is time to chiong for my GPA??!!haha...i wonder if i can survive by then too...maybe not chiong le ba...haha...shall see how...

getting uncomfortable and sleepy now...think i should go and rest early today!

holidays!

2010-08-08T18:22:00.003+08:00

2 days passed from the hectic schedule...suddenly not used to not doing any work...maybe is some post syndrome from over work.lol

just finished watching personal taste/personal preference...ok la...wonder issit because of the cast that's y i dun feel much of excitement while watching...lol..but the song...some was not bad la...i ended up hearing the song repeatedly instead of finding the scenes and watch repeatedly...after watching the show, i wonder if i did choose the wrong poly course...always wanted to join some engineering stuff like architecture design or maybe even interior design...feel like quite cool to have it as my job, but i think i sucks in my drawing.lol...maybe if i join that i will have to retain a few semesters because i failed in my art.lol

saw my facebook updates from friends recently...all the motivators...they really have a lot of fun together!how i wish i can join...but o wells...busy schedule and also clashing of the volunteery stuff...have to just leave it i guess...have to prioritise stuff...accept some and give up some...it is impossible to just accept or take in everything because i only have 24hr a day, and it is better to do a good job in the task tat i was given, then doing rubbish in everything...

haiz...so bored!!!wat can i do?have to find new dramas now...

holidays...farewell to NYP

2010-08-07T17:37:00.002+08:00

have not been blogging for a week. been busy with many things.

for the previous week, i have been busy with proj reports, 1 test and 2 prac...besides that still got 2 days of yog training which totally drained me out. actually did not study well for my last wks tests...abit regret, but o wells, it is all over!

last thu went to ntu as a grp with my classmates...thinking about the whole day...is tiring and funny. lol..we took a train down after our lessons and the journey was so long...all the way to the west. after that, we have to wait for a 30min interval bus to ntu, and walk all the way to our destination which is about 30min to 1hr of walking. by then is like...briefing is over and all..and we are damn tired. lecturer gave us the overview of the briefing that we missed, and after tat we went to eat the buffet they provided...and we seems like we have not been eating for 1yr already...all like gobbling food.lol..and we have some role play scene and after tat took a bus back to mrt station. 4 of my friends including me took the internal shuttle bus like a blur sotong, passing by the security twice and they came to check our pass...like recognise us already.lol..damn embarassing.we realise we kind of lost our way, so we ask the bus uncle and he guided us, and while waiting to stop, a whole bunch of pple came in and pack the bus...when we alighted, they also kind of follow us. we waited for the bus to get to the mrt for very long, and thought we misunderstand the bus driver, and walk around looking if there is any alternative, nearly to the resort in seeking for the police help. in the end the bus came, and we boarded the pack bus back to mrt station and took a train home, which is about 1hr plus journey. reach home late, nv study much for yesterday test.

yesterday, was kind of like the last day of official class...everyone ended up taking pics and all, as if not seeing each other anymore, besides the time for our exams, and perhaps graduation. thinking about it, 3 years really passed very fast...or at least, time flies...i feel tat i m like going up too fast already...how i wish time can just slow down a little...haiz..i gonna miss sch...listening to all the lectures, whether it is boring or not, sleeping during class, or even talking in class while the teacher is even talking, which is wat all students will do, and i wonder will i ever have this chance again...seems like my study life is going to come to an end already...should i go to university to continue this?but i doubt i can get in. kind of sad that i m going to leave the sch, the class, friends and lecturers. no more going of hougang mall to hang out after sch everyday...no more of silence and crappiness of the class...now i kind of wonder if i can survive in attachment, as my interpersonal skills seems to downgrade a lot for the past few years. really thankful for everyone around me...the lecturers and friends... i duno y i kind of miss some the lecturers very much:(

today feels so bored...i m done with watching my latest ep of we got married(though passed one wk actually, and missed adam couple cos the video is removed), and also the last song movie! the movie is finally out...after so super long..the movie was not bad la..but i think the book is still better. cried at the last part, when the family noe the father had cancer...maybe i read the book twice and kind of put the words into the movie that's y feel abit emotional? i duno...but see the boy so attached to the father, make me feel so sad...

haiz..what should i do next?maybe i should watch jumper:)wow...typed a long post...shall end the wordy post with a video:D

busy bee...

2010-07-31T17:44:00.002+08:00

actually logged on to blogger for like 2 hours ago because I feel like as if I got nothing to do. In the end, I opened my email and saw so many things to ask me to do by today...So now I have no reason to avoid them. Lol..just done up with one...going to start the other one soon. Hope I can finish up before my dinner so it will be video time for me later on!

Yesterday went out to watch Despicable Me. Suppose to make my Ez-link card too, ended up queuing but did not make as I did not bring IC. The previous time when I ask and check the person never ask for my IC. Dammit... had mos burger for my dinner before the movie, and got a long sleeve top to wear under my YOG uniform because we are not allowed to bring in jacket. so while browsing, i receive jin wen call to ask if i wan to take pic with F.Cuz and After School. haha..was a last min thing...did not went down as it was too far already.hehe...

took a train ride back...suppose to go home. end up me and singyi go walk around at heartland. I bought pudding milk tea and she bought snow ice...the fries look tempting, but seems to be unable to stuff down in to my stomach. lol. we sat down and eat, then went to look at some other stuff. went watsons and all, and saw idol stuff in comics connection. think gonna make a trip down after mon night class to get them. hehe...and before i go home, at abt 9 plus, the sushi is going at cheaper price...i also wonder why m i able to stuff down the sushi, but was super bloated later on. suddenly got the urge to make sushi!!!

so just now in the morning, i went to make my ezlink card...spend 8 dollar in making and 20dollar top up..totally broke le..haiz...then went to heartland, buy egg tart for my grandma, back at home sitting in front of the computer till now...

shall take a break before continuing my work!

goodbye mdm kwok

2010-07-29T22:18:00.002+08:00

just now i heard a shocking news from my sis... she just came back from my sec sch cca sec 4 farewell...and i receive a news,that my primary sch chinese teacher had passed away.after i heard, i was kind of in a shock for 5 sec.the person that i heard passed away was mdm kwok.

mdm kwok had been a very kind and nice chinese teacher to me...in primary school, i only had 2 chinese teacher. 李老师, my pri 1,2 and 4 chinese teacher, and 郭老师(mdm kwok), whom teach me when i was pri 3,5 and 6. she has been very patient and kind towards us, and her teaching methods nv fail to make me feel bored...i m always very active in her class, not to say that she was actually my form teacher in pri 5...even though there is like pple who are not interested in her class/chinese, she still try her very best to teach them...and her most famous phrase, which i remember until now(always said to lauren):懒人屎尿多...and i always remember going back every year after graduating from primary sch, on teachers' day, to visit her and give her gifts. and we will always talk for quite some time, and she always showed care and concern towards me, and my sis(she also taught my sis in primary sch). the last time i seen her was sec 3, because she retired and only work as part time teacher after that. i tried to visit her in sec 4 but to no avail, so i contacted her using handphone... she nv even forget me for so long after i graduated from sch...kind of a good memory though.

i actually thought of writing to her these few years, like how i did in the past during my pri sch days, when we were given the assignment to write to her a letter during our long holidays...but because i lost the address and all, that's y i nv write to her.received the news that she passed away really shocked me...nv had any news from her for so long, nv visited or write to her, and...maybe regret that if she really passed away, i nv went to pay respect to her or see her for the last time. she is an inspiration to me, some one who pushes me on, also some one who is like my family, my grandmother. really duno how to describe my feelings now...

郭老师，我爱你！

No other~~~

2010-07-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

just ended my BP test today...it was...crap?haha..tats how i can describe.lol.first time having a blank head when entering the test venue.think this paper results might not end up as well.

today went down to NTU for my YOG training. when on the way there, the whole bus of students just practically slept for the whole journey. bus ride from sch to NTU is about half an hour. and the nap was damn shiok. was kind of refreshed after sleeping. so after alighting, we went to the medical clinic to familiar with the place, the registration area, pharmacy, physiotherapy, rest area, and clinics where the patient visit the doctors. most of the medications are stocked up and i was busying myself with recognizing wat drug is for wat purpose, hopefully memorising the dosage and side effects too...had some test with the lecturers. ended up with a conclusion: it is time for me to not only revise for my Basic Pharmacology II, but also revise my Basic Pharmacology I, kind of for my attachment too. lol. we learnt how to do all the administrative stuff in organizing the prescription and stock...hope all is ok when i m there.damn complicating la...and to all of our surprise: large box of condoms is stocked up there.haha...heard that it will be on demand on the opening and closing ceremony. shall see by then.lol. after tat i took a bus and mrt home...tried timing the journey. was near 1.5hr man!omg!!!i wonder how to reach there on time during my shift.morning sia!dun tell me i have to cab down for 3 of my morning shifts?

feeling so tired...but i guess i gonna do up some of my work before sleeping:)

totally love super junior's no other recently..haha...cos is like..they are kind of smiling while they are dancing?haha...liven up my day la...shall load in my hp some day...when the battery are kind of enough for me to do so. lol...the mv version....

and the live version!!

NDP is coming!!!haha...suddenly got the mood of the NDP.maybe cos the YOG song give the NDP feel...miss quite some NDP song.hehe

and finally the YOG song:D

shall continuing editting report...a little side track:p

2010-07-26T23:31:00.002+08:00

wasn't in the mood to blog these few weeks...guess the blog is going to get dusty soon...getting busy, thus the mood for me to blog is also like...since my daily routine is like school and work kind of stuff...

on saturday i went out early in the morning to go collect my YOG pass and uniform..the uniform was ok, but the pass is like...duno wat to say...after that, actually planned to go to orchard to watch despicable me. but in the end, walk the whole orchard, go 4 theatres,but there is no movies available in the afternoon...spoil my mood.lol..ended up going heartland mall walk around and all.hehe.when i go home, i went to search for despicable me online. the minions is so cute!but i couldn't watch the full movie cos is like...i guess the user used illegal filming?haha...i waiting for the last song movie to be out!when is it sia...wait damn long le.

wed is my bp test. yet half is not even touched.how nice. and i m watching taiwanese drama while doing my revision.confirm a 100% good student at this rate...LOL...

feeling sleepy...shall head to my bed soon:D

napfa-_-

2010-07-21T22:28:00.001+08:00

feeling so tired and sleepy now...

had my napfa test today...failed my pull-up(as predicted) and 2.4km...dammit..i thought i can pass my 2.4km because i actually trained for it beforehand.dammit.haiz.wat to do.but i dun think i m going to retake my napfa le.damn tiring lor...think my muscles gonna ache tml.

actually planned things for me to do tonight.but i guess i will not be doing anything.my energy is totally drained off le...now only planning to sleep...

busy schedule

2010-07-18T13:27:00.002+08:00

haven't been blogging for a long time...schedule have been very packed...don't even have time to train for my napfa which is like this wednesday.crap lor.somemore past few days have been raining and all...to find time to practice when it is not raining is a bit tough.

have been busy with my work and social life last wk, schooling for nearly the whole day on mon, thu. tue i cannot really remember wat i did...then wed went for half day sch and went out after tat all the way till night to meet up with sec sch clique...and fri also kind of like a half day, suppose to practice for napfa but ruined due to rain. was kind of tired since wed,duno y..like sleepy all the time.during the night class on thu i even fell asleep even though i was sitting at the front with a kind lecturer...but the thing is like..i fell asleep "involuntarily"...only knew i was sleeping from the few jerks...damn crap...

yesterday i actually planned my schedule to do up stuff...but in the end only like started at 10 because i have been watching my drama for the whole day.

next few weeks is going to be a hectic week due to the YOG, causing all the rescheduling:
Wk 14: mon-psn presentation, wed-napfa,fri-mock interview(interviewee)
Wk 15: wed-BP test & YOG training, fri-mock interview(interviewer)
Wk 16: tue-PP test, wed-PT test & YOG training, thu-YOG training, fri- EBM report and PA report submission

damn crap lor..so tiring!and lecturers are trying to get us to study,but the thing is,they give us so much work load, think got time to study meh?we also need time to unwind la!

alrights...back to my work that i suppose to do yesterday. should be blogging much lesser these few wks...

one wk end

2010-07-10T00:24:00.002+08:00

wk 12 of the school...ended for me abt 6hrs ago...haha...was tiring..nearly fell asleep during every lesson for a few minutes...actually planned to listen carefully for the accounting lecture but i ended up drifting of in some dreamland...lol..pathetic..shall try to do the tut like abt tml or wat...see if i can do.

just finished printing notes and changed a new cartridge of black ink.omg...my notes really take so much ink.lol.damn waste money sia.need go get another black cartridge because i have no spare ones at home..

getting quite addicted to some taylor swift song after watching letters to juliet(happen to have love story in the movie)..then went to watch some other mv of the songs that i like...lol...nv ending...think i m starting to get all the go back to past stuff...abt a few mins ago i m like considering to re read all the books i have...especially the last song..damn sad...regretted not watching the movie in the theatres.

tml have 21st bday celebration for my sis...so counted nearly whole day not free...and i predict that my mum will have foul mood...because all the 'rubbish' in the living room have to be moved to my parents room.lol..haiz...wat to do..shall bear with it!

need to have a good sleep today...haven't been sleeping my regular 8hrs of sleep for quite some time already...

nong nong ago~~

2010-07-07T22:29:00.002+08:00

feeling very sleepy now..o god...think because of my insufficient 8hrs sleep for the past few days plus sleeping of 3hrs on sunday night..lol...want to start doing my work, but i just feel so restless and buay ta han...should i just heck care and do tml?hmm...

past few days have been doing quite some stuff, but i duno wat i have done as i totally have to brain cells to do the "recap" mode...all my cells are like completely dead, the only thing that is some wat clear in my mind is wat i did today.lol

went to eat kfc and watch letters to juliet with singyi at the cathay today.not bad la...got free small popcorn somemore.but weird thing is the movie started even before the stated time?or is there something wrong with my watch?haha...

ok...my brain is really not functioning as i duno wat to type already...haiz...replacement lab class tml...and only 30min break then is Pharmacotherapy...how my brain can work sia.lol

shall go sleep soon..

you are my angel~~

2010-07-01T16:00:00.002+08:00

today's paper...50MCQ...ok la..not sure if it is good or not because i totally duno the ans.lol...tml is last paper already!damn happy..hope all will go well tml:D

after test tml..maybe go and buy some gift for 2 person's 21st.lol...seriously duno wat to get.since this wkend should be have nothing to do, it is a good time to do some hand made gift.shall take a long bus journey ride to PS tml to see wat i can get...long time nv take a long journey ride already..kind of love it...give me some time to think and reflect abt certain stuff..but first time going so far to get some stuff alone..wonder how it will be like...actually wanted to watch a movie on my own...new experience.haha..but then i dun think i have the money...maybe next wed?haha...

today's jokwon song that he sang for GaIn is out...hehe..kind of funny though:P

things have start to change for quite some time...many things have happened in this sem,friends,cca,sch work...so many stuff that make me wan to slow down my pace and relax...

shall go watc some tv now...

test test test

2010-06-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

test is coming up next wk!and all the best...nothing much is touched...on mon and tue i kind of chiong abit...and thats it..after that i seems like energy totally drained...even until today still like tat...my brain is like drifting off to duno wat land...omg...how??!!

tired from camp

2010-06-20T23:30:00.002+08:00

still feeling damn sleepy now...think is the after effect of not sleeping for a day..or at least maybe just 1hr of sleep/nap.lol...the camp was fun...seniors rocks!!!haha...really after they left i think i m not going to attend gc anymore...

yesterday was actually in a very reluctant mood to go for camp(even though the camp starts on fri)...because i kind of assumed it will be damn bored,somemore i m tired from waking up early to go jogging..in the end i still left my house and buy some snacks and go take a bus. while crossing the road to bus stop...one auntie kind of scold me.i was like???and the reason for her to scold me is cause i nv press the traffic light button...and i actually pressed at least 5 times but just tat she nv see...watever lor...dun bother.lol...

when i reach the sch, happen to see one grp of the seniors waiting for the juniors to come play games.the number of juniors that come down is lesser than the seniors.lol...weird lor...then we had dinner and then have night walk.the seniors are so bored that all of us formed a grp to play...and we like super high kind and very competitive spirit..see wat ever team like following us we start running..lol...damn tiring lor...run from one end of sch to another for many times...12clues in total..and walk in dark and all when half of us got slight night blindness...lol...and in the end we won!!!haha..cos we got alot of pple tats y..can split to find clues..lol

after tat,we went to bathe..then the senior girls all went to girls dorm and picnic and chit chat..haha..snacks tat we thought might last us for the whole night while chatting ended up only last for 30min...the night walk really drain us like hungry ghost...lol..then after tat some slept and some continue chatting..me and sharifah was the one that dun feel sleepy so we end up going out of the room..then suddenly duno y...happen to saw someone who like sleep until damn funny pose...he told us to wake him at 530am and it was abt 5am when we saw the way he slept.all the chair was on him(he placed them on his own).lol..damn funny la..so sharifah sneaked in, use rafia string to tie his legs together and also clip his hair.my another fren placed dustbin near that guy and also flour on his hands and face...lol..we like observing him outside the dorm like as if he is an animal...lol..he smear all the flour on his face while sleeping la..and when i wake him up at 530am,he scolded me like i intrude his house or something..and also take sharifah as his mum...lol..damn funny.in the end we didn't get to wake him up.

we went to brush our teeth then go and watch sun rise...some other pple also join in..haha..the breeze was nice...damn fun sia the whole night..we sat till abt 7am, then go back to dorm.actually only wan rest, we ended up sleeping...i woke up abt 8am, walk out and saw everyone who did not sleep last night fell asleep.lol..everyone was tired...and i go see that guy being pranked...guess he woke up some time..and i heard from him the string broke so he did not feel it...but it was damn funny la..the way he ans.i shall not elaborate cos damn long.haha..after tat i had bread for breakfast and went home..bathe and rest till abt 1230pm then i went to sleep till 530pm...lol...muscles aching like mad sia..need massage already...hehe..

super late now!shall go sleep already!!!

leeteuk talking english

2010-06-17T01:42:00.002+08:00

saw this video just as i abt to sleep...abit funny...lol...though there seems to be like language barrier..but the pronunciation is good:D

sleepy

2010-06-17T01:19:00.002+08:00

today go back gc....atmosphere really damn awkard, make me more determined to quit guitar...most prob i guess after colours of the wind and thats it...unless the next song is something i m interested to as well...really damn difficult to play la...super fast lor...wth...

tml going to go out to makan and buy all the stuff i need..have not been going out for quite some time, because i m lazy and also tired.well..hope i can get them tml, so i can kind of rest and stuff like tat...also to lighten up my mood la...but i m damn broke sia..tuition cancelled already means no more income for me monthly...even if it is a meagre amt of money...lol..

alrights.seriously my eyes cannot take it any more...need go and sleep first..think i m going to start talking nonsense soon

no more trust

2010-06-15T12:04:00.002+08:00

i m really upset now and i m giving up on these already...it is really tiring..i tried to help, but ended up being "hurt"...now i m not going to trust anyone already...at least not so easily...i seriously duno how to speak to any of those ppl any more.talking to them is like as if i m talking others too...words are spreading and spreading.i just meant for one to hear, and it is spreaded to others.my fear of trust with others have already been starting before this incident, and now this have put on a heavier blow for me...

now it is really hard for me to put my trust on any one already-->especially guys...they are the one who break the trust...not in the sense of relationship, but friendship...it seems like any thing that i tell a guy fren about,no matter wat is being directly "copy and paste" not even rephrased and even being told from here to there...just telling someone to keep a secret issit tat diff?

secrets

2010-06-14T21:00:00.002+08:00

i m really super confused and tired of all these...keeping of secrets or knowing of so many secrets is indeed tiring.you know something but yet you cannot say something because you promised it and you shouldn't break the trust.however,you have to keep thinking of how to speak to others because you cannot say the secret. at times you even have to keep the secret because you know the secret will hurt some one....damn...i really duno wat to do...i m really tired of all of this...

finally

2010-06-14T15:08:00.003+08:00

have been trying to blog these few days..but always busy in the midnight because many things have happened recently...haiz...

seriously, i now wonder who are really the true friends around you, who are the one at the back supporting you or even backstab you, who can help you keep your secrets. recently, someone that I know of have started to spark some kind of "war" on fb. seriously...is between a guy and a girl..just because of a comment on fb which is not intended for one party...and the guy threatened the girl and scold her. she tried to ignore it...and the guy keep taunting her for watever reason. she ignored again, then he revealed her secrets,wat she gossip about, trying to make things difficult for her and even spoil her friendship with others and even implicate the innocent ones in...i duno for wat reason but it seems like he 吃饱没事做. He do until pple start asking the girl to report to the police cos it is like threatened until her life is at sake..who noes wat the hell he will do. now he deleted the post on his wall and say that he knew it was some misunderstanding but expected the girl to INITIATE the apology...it was him who is making the things overboard..i mean ya,both party is at fault, but shouldn't the one who start stirring all the trouble be the one who apologise first...it is freaking irritating.

it kind of scares me as i m also a fren of that guy...luckily not close and have a little bad blood with him...but no secrets shared with him so kind of lucky...but i wonder y he must put on fb and let everyone noe...y can't he settle it personally...it is spoiling his and the girl's image. wats more, he also scold or threaten the pple that interfere with this...is like wth??

all of these are sending chills down my spine...especially when this few months i m having some periods of doubts with the friendship with pple....now i really start to doubt nearly everyone around me, even though i should not do so as it is really unfair to those who treat me truely, truely as a friend, someone to talk and share things with. haiz...

yesterday my uncle got admitted to hospital...due to swelling of his intestine...not really sure of the situation as my mum nv say much...but heard that this thing is nothing much of serious so i guess it is ok...

duno wat to do now...shall just stone in front of com...

pharmacotherapy~~

2010-06-10T21:44:00.002+08:00

yes!all ended already...finally all is over...the test and work that i m supposed to hand in before the holidays are kind of done...shall slack as much as possible tonight...actually wanted to slack for the whole of this wk..but i still have to complete my proj report and some other homework...so...haiz...shall just plan my schedule tml then see how.cos i m seriously tired...like a computer after working for long finally breakdown and blank out..lol...i need time to clear my 'hard disk/drive'.lol

i seriously irritated pharmaceutical analysis...something is against me or wat...the results are not wat i expected for nearly like 4wks...wth!!!redo and redo but it is still like shit..cannot imagine i still have to survive for another 4wks of it when sch reopen, with the percentage of the project with quite a little high weightage (each abt 20% i guess?so total 40%)

super tired now...and i have spent abt 1-2hr updating this post because i m busy msning...lol..after writing part of my schedule, realise my whole of next wk is fully packed..there goes my studies and break...lol..

need to go organise my stuff now.

when you lose something

2010-06-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

when you really lose someone, someone you really close with, someone you love,then you will really know how much the person mean to you.

pple often take one another for granted, usually only see the other person bad points; but when you lose that person, you will usually feel how important that person is, how good is he/she really is to you. so many pple around me are having these kind of problems...either abt to lose your loved ones, or really lost them. but before that, they have nv even cherished the time they had together. i guess it is really when something happen to you, then from then you will learn something.like learn your lesson after your mistakes.however, sometimes, you really drop real hard just to learn a lesson..which is worthy or not?

after going thru the past one yr, i realised wat mistakes i have made, and tried to learn from it by picking up the bits and pieces that i had left.but it seems to take much more energy and work that i have to do in order to get them back, and i m seriously tired of it. and it seems like while picking those back, i m losing some stuff too...even though to me some is worth to be lost as they are the cause of my "misery"...haiz...really duno wat to do..i think i really need some time to stone and think abt it.

june!

2010-06-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

first post of june...haha...finally the long awaiting weekend break!o gosh...really super waiting for this.

just woke up from my nap.haven't been feeling well for the past few days.think i nv had enough rest that's y...like as if stretched myself after the BP test on wednesday.shall take the net few days to recuperate i guess...

alot of things have been happening...wanted to type alot on the blog...but think i will forget along the way.

shall start with wat happen today.early in the morning, and went for the presentation for corporate culture.practiced for a few times the previous night and happen that i can present today without looking at one single bit of my script...quite amaze with myself.lol..but i m shivering when i start but slowly get better...but then in the end the teacher said i rush like a bullet train...o wells..haha..shall see wat is her comment next wk.lol.and well, practically after the presentation is the typical fri,ebm tut, then followed by BP tut and ebm lecture.only thing diff is just no drug store duty.hehe..took nap during the break time as i m seriously like lacking of sleep.then after sch, i boarded bus with sharifah.talk alot of secrets and stuff...both of us have been like talking about this since sch reopen..haha..perhaps cos we are in cca together more or less the bonding will be closer?then after that i went to heartland to get ding ding candy for my tutee as promised and walked home...rested all the way till now cos i have a high chance i m going to break down with fever or something soon...

talking about cca...this few weeks are kind of tormenting for me...i duno y...something seems to have happened within the committee...and i m those type tat will help cos it affected some of my close frens and also i m in previous committee so more or less i feel responsible for this batch.however...it seems like whatever i did was not appreciated and was even being accused for not doing somethings when i was not even told abt it, and also as if i caused them to be in trouble with the SA officer. for example they lost the key, and they nv report to SA(very impt) and plan to hide from them, hoping to duplicate. I told them it was of no point as the key are special and each had a code, and it seems like they dun bother to listen or something, and borrowed from BB primers, whom we share the room with. But they nv noe that someone actually found the key and pass to SA, just tat SA is waiting for pple to own up,but none of them did. one front counter officer was saying that he will not report to our cca officer abt this if we own up, but apparently, our officer kind of knew beforehand. i went to meet our officer before she meet up with the committee to talk abt some problems and stuff,and she invited me to their meeting...i was not invited by any of the current committee...hence since my officer kind of show like she noe everything that is happening(i duno how she get the news), i guess some of the committee thought i was the one that reveal their secrets and stuff,and they kind of ignored me for the practice.i kind of feel very irritated cos i m not the one that say anything abt them yet i m like the bad person. damn it...i really feeling like stopping cca already.anyway i shall miss cca next wk.since i m having test on thu...just use tat as an excuse...damn the watever "if you have the will to come, you will have a way". y the hell i will want to go if i m treated like this.

anyways, study break is coming in a weeks time...after the DISC presentation on monday and also pharmacotherapy test on thu. arranged with my sis to go out one day...go G2000 buy my attachment clothes,go cotton on, and maybe bras bersah for the new shop.haha...maybe also watch a movie or something?feel like going out on a treat that day but i guess she will stop me..haiz..cos my stomach problem is really back...i m going on a low carbohydrates diet...damn it...i will seriously miss my white rice..my sushi!!my pizza..all my fav food.haiz...

my sis is already planning wat to do for her bday...lol..but for the convenience of my grandma, we have no choice but to have a buffet at my house.lol..think my house will be super duper pack thanks to her...lol...

o god...i feel like swimming!!!but must wait till i get well:(

woosh~~

2010-05-29T01:39:00.005+08:00

long time nv post...busy with a lot of sch work and stuff after sch reopen.work load seems to be nv ending...o wells...wat to do...coming to think of it, tests are coming, which means that i m approaching the mid-semester!!o god...and after tat i guess in a speed of lightning, my sem 1 of yr 3 is gonna end, then i going to go for my attachment with FYP and ta-da! i m graduating!!haha...waiting for that day to come..seriously...but actually i still duno..wonder will i miss sch life..haiz...

alrights!another short post again as my life is as boring as usual.nothing much to say today...just tat...my cravings for food is getting more and more..one day shall try bibimbap...though i duno will i like the taste...hehe...saw 2 videos today, one is an mv and one is a kind of...story?haha...the story seems kind of real..but i guess u will really 体会 the whole thing if u have the other half...

it's friday..haiz..

2010-05-21T00:21:00.002+08:00

omg...it is approaching to my end of the wk...my e learning holidays!!really as expected,i totally nv rest at all..damn...actually i think partially because everyday need to do some stuff..hehe...the next 3 days also hectic...training,outings,tuition..haha...occupying myself with stuff...haiz...haven finish my work!darn...haha

alrights..shall prepare to sleep:D

raining...

2010-05-17T17:19:00.002+08:00

it is going to rain outside again...the weather is really super unpredictable..no wonder people are falling sick so easily. the weather can be super hot for a moment, then suddenly the temperature drop and outside start raining...i think i will be catching a cold soon at this rate. have not been feeling that well more and more often especially this yr.

my 'aunty' really come at a super wrong time man...cause my training for napfa for this wk to be disrupted totally. supposedly wan to swim tml but then...haiz...then is also quite hard for me to jog..again it is going to rain like now when i m considering whether to go to the park. some of my frens have already started training!o god..lol

y my daddy isn't home yet!!missed him lots...thought he will be back in the late morning but he is still not back..haha..my sushi is in the fridge waiting for him!lol..i think i m making sushi faster and faster.lol..today completed cooking the ingredients and rolling the sushis within an hour!haha..my sis brought 2 rolls to work,me and her share one roll of sushi, i ate another one and a quarter roll as my brunch, before my mum suggested to keep for my dad as i m already totally bloated...haha..and super thanks to my mum!lol..cos she hate mayo/milky stuff alot..but she still force down one in her mouth.haha

have been hearing rascal flatts-bless the broken road for repeated times today already...because duno what to watch or hear from youtube...so happen to suddenly remember about that song and listen to it while fb-ing...again getting addictive...

tml is sch for 2 hours-->lecture....suppose to swim:(..maybe go out instead i guess?haha...see how:D

"It takes a second to say I Love You, but a lifetime to show it."

a night before monday

2010-05-16T23:19:00.003+08:00

one night before the start of a new wk...but is a night that i m somewat happy abt-> no school tml!!!yes yes yes!haha...shall try and enjoy myself next wk...already somewat got half of my wk pack with 'outings'...hehe

today spend majority of my time rotting at home, wondering wat to do...have been watching alot of tv...think tml i shall spend some time in the kitchen cooking stuff...maybe i should have gone to some cooking sch instead...maybe i will feel much happier.lol..but i think i will grow...horizontally...at a faster rate.lol

just now help to take some 'graduation' photos...shots of my sis wearing her graduation uniform with me and my ah ma...haha..she insisted on taking the photo...and cos she is weak so we only can do it at home. pics might be up on my fb i guess..depending on how fast my sis upload them.but while looking at it,i realise my legs are damn fair...shit..i need to give it a tan immediately...i look like some 白斩鸡 lor...haha...

today suppose to go out jogging with weix..but it ended up raining...always when i have the determination to step out to the park, the weather just...天不作美...wat to do?haha...shall try go for a jog tml:D

tired

2010-05-16T01:33:00.004+08:00

the day really passes so fast..lol...it is going to be elearning week next wk..but at the rate of how the time passes, i think the short 'holiday' is going to end quite fast, even though it shouldn't be a holiday as there is quite a no. of stuff to do.

looking at the tasks that i m suppose to do and the 'outings' that i m suppose to attend, i wonder if i m able to complete everything that i m suppose to do next wk.haiz...

yesterday my sis just received a call from the sch Sterling University, that she managed to make it. CONGRATS SIS!..but i feel kind of stress up too...like as if i need to score well too to get into university.but my gpa is very hard to pull up as i was looking at my yr 3 modules, and it will already be lucky if my gpa nv drop anymore.but in order to get into the course that i want, the gpa must be quite high and to be honest, i m not the one with the best grades in sch, and obviously they will be the one choosen instead of me...kind of regret wat i have did in my yr 2...seriously wonder wat is going wrong with me for the last yr...

the last song movie is out!!!omg...seems damn nice...haha...waiting to find a date with my sis to go watch the movie.hope it is up to my expectations!or at least come out about the same as the book la..haha...so far all the movies that i have watched and is kind of gotten from the storyline of the book, is totally unable to be matched with the book...eg:twilight.haha...the book seems to be much much nicer compared to the movie..lol..i think partially is due to quite a huge part of the movie is different from the storyline thats y...hmm...

tml my dad is going overseas!going to miss him...haha..even though it is just only one day.lol...but i duno why i suddenly got those kind of worrying feelings for him these days...hope is that i m being over-sensitive...everything is going to be alright!!!perhaps is the post-syndrome of studying too much pharmacology.lol.

NAPFA NAPFA NAPFA...argh...getting on my nerves...have not been training for a long time.and even worse...have not taken napfa since like when?sec 2?like about 4-5years...haha...jia lat le la...

watched 偷心大圣P.S男.not bad la...still on going..haha..waiting for monday's ep to be out!!exciting exciting:D

shall go sleep now...going 2AM!!!

(suddenly start thinking about korean band 2AM...shall post an MV!)

sch early!

2010-05-14T18:20:00.002+08:00

whoohoo!sch ended early today...at least kinda..haha...do not need to reach home late today.shall take a break today before starting anything.next wk is elearning wk...besides going to school for BP make up lecture,guitar practice,bring parents for sis graduation and go for medical training for YOG,more or less should be tats it...unless going to sch for exercise...omg...NAPFA on my sis bday...lol...lucky or not?haha

quite a no. of work load tml,with projects and reports to submit.haiz...how to finish sia...nothing much to watch recently besides we got married that have JoKwon & GaIn and YongHwa & SeoHyun inside

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just restart my com again...seriously,it is going to crash soon.i have no idea why.since there is no sch on mon, i going to call HP and see wat is the problem.have been happening since last last thu (abt 29apr like that),thought was my driver that crash the com...but i guess is something to do with the updates...cos now i always have to restart my com for once before it can kind of work properly...if it continues like tat i duno how m i going to continue with my project...crap.

updates

2010-05-13T21:31:00.002+08:00

have not been updating my blog for quite some time...kind of busy.nearly everyday out and only reach home at home.super tired...really feeling kind of drained...

nothing much to say about...life is just about school and perhaps sometimes going out with colleagues...nothing much..hehe

y is it always like this?

2010-05-07T18:35:00.002+08:00

had a busy wk for the past few days...omg...wonder how did i even survived that work load...so tiring.and more is coming in. shit.

haiz.sometimes i wonder,why is certain people like this?always thinking that they are right,they are a very good and perfect person that no one can pick on at all...and started complaining abt this and that, saying other people bad words, tat their character sucks to the max.but sometimes,have you ever consider why others treat you this way?is it because u did something wrong,thats y others have this kind of attitude towards you?maybe is because wat u say about others=you(以牙还牙的对待方法）?or maybe the things that u did...are somewat against others principles?not everyone think the same way wat. by hearing you say all this make me have a much higher barrier with you...dun even feel like communicating with u.and another thing is...i think there is no one so completely perfect in this world.if u are that SPECIAL one,i guess you shouldn't be living on earth.

2010-05-04T01:09:00.002+08:00

omg...getting addictive to we got married...now is season 2 turn...haha...only get to watch one couple cos it is uploaded according to person but not as a whole episode...lol...JoKwon and GaIn couple!!haha...so cute and funny...lol...but alot of eps to watch.

shall end with a short post as it is late now!

Video: JoKwon & GaIn - We Fell In Love

CPU

2010-05-02T17:23:00.003+08:00

YES!i finally got my CPU back...ever since it have been gone for a 'break'...haven seen it for a long time.haha..finally can get to print notes at home...yippee...2nd week of sch just past.tml is the 3rd week.omg...time is really passing so fast.who noes the next second i m going to graduate?haha...

the past few days wasn't really doing much...more or less is just busy with cca, enjoying my time hanging out with all the cca mates.it was super fun.week end was just as usual,tuition if not stay at home.except that there is something special today which is i made some bun or something...haha...steamed man tou.lol...and while typing,i realise my CPU no chinese typing.crap man..haha...was still thinking of type some stuff in chinese

sometimes i wonder,why does people keep thinking about the past when it is about time to let go?is like,you already noe the results of it,that nothing can change the issue or the problem.you cannot go back to the past.but you just keep thinking about it,and somemore even 'dragging' pple down with you,making them so frustrated...

haiz.feel like watching quite a few movies that are showing or going to show. like iron man II, ip man II, the last song,the backup plan..haha..but i m kind of lazy to be out of house besides going for sch.lol..becoming more and more a lazy bum:P

another mv of the song i like: You and I from 2Ne1 Park Bom

love GC!:D

2010-04-28T00:37:00.002+08:00

just came back an hour ago from gc...omg!!!i love this kind of practice man!only left about half more yr to experience it...oh god...really love the crappiness man!!!love it to the max!!!!

today had afternoon lessons...slept in late...and lectures are as boring as usual except for pharm prac because is abt babies!:) after that went dinner before having guitar practice.super fun.haha...

at first we had the full dress rehearsal..then after that...i duno how it occur,it become hiding slippers game.lol...vic and cf slippers were gone(vic only left 1 side after he found out) and cf only manage to find one after a long time.lol..in the end...it turn out to be a stealing of shoes game,from naz,since he is the one that hide all the slippers.lol..super funny...cf was carrying naz and vic was snatching naz shoes...someone was helping in the process but i have no idea who.lol...after that become another pair of shoe hiding game(but naz find his shoes quite fast).and it is so coincidental that the first side of shoe/slippers found is their right shoe/slippers.lol...after that,during the flow of concert,we start gossiping,snacking,joking,playing pokemon also have....like totally slacking,...as if we are camping...how i wish i brought my sleeping bag and camp there...anyway the senior ensemble is not the first time have guys and girls sharing same 'dorm'. and i managed to practice my full duet with a pro senior!omg...lol...kind of overcome my fear a little...after tat,while on the way home...we joke and all..and i was tricked by glen...damn...that stupid 'red star'.haha...me and jin wen get tricked.but we repay back by smacking him hard...somemore both palms landed on his back on the same time.good partner in crime with jin wen!haha.and today also first time i chase after the bus super fast..think i ran at least 100m or 200m for it...lol...

i wonder how will it be like when i stop gc...all the fun will be gone.the times when i m down,but after going there i was kind of revived.lol...really missed all the memories there!the crap,the joke,the pranks,the people,the guitar practice as a whole..weeps....

sch at 9am tml...got to sleep in....another guitar practice tml followed by concert on thu night;)

vic bday

2010-04-26T00:48:00.002+08:00

haha...wanted to blog last night but i was totally drained...in the end ended up blogging today.lol

yesterday was really fun.went to help to prepare for vic's 21st bday surprise.woke up at 8am and went to meet dj and jolene at amk to buy bbq stuff...after tat walk to jes house to collect the rest of the food,with jolene at the side complaining that she is melting under the hot sun.bus journey to vic's house was super long...should have slept in there but feel paiseh...haha...the walk to vic house was also another torturing...hot sun in the noon man...haha...rich pple y stay in this kind of house sia!torturing to just travel around.lol..

once we reach vic house,jes tried to distract him by bringing him to stay in his room while me,dj,jolene and glen carry the food and hide in the backyard so that vic dun see us...he take damn long to prepare sia...we like good companion to the flies and ants back there.lol...lucky we got cold soya bean milk by his mum to relieve our thirst...haha...after vic gone,we went to prepare food....while i was holding the hot dog with the chicken wing,suddenly Locky(vic's jack russell) came running in...scare me..thought it is going to pounce on me to get those food...lol..in the end it is actually rushing to the backyard to shit.LOL...

after preparing the food,i went to parkway to buy vic present with jin wen.suppose to take a bus there,but i kind of get lost and just end up walking to parkway.haha...bought a watch for him to use in NS.then we walk back abt 4plus with jeremy to buy some stuff needed for bbq.miss the surprise face of vic man...too bad...haha...but met him on the way walking to his house as he send his fren off....when i reach there...i saw Locky locked in the toilet...poor thing sia!haha..cos got malays so have no choice...went to accompany him abit...hehe...after that i m back to the kitchen preparing food as usual...think next time i should just sleep in kitchen.lol...after tat is cutting of cake...a big chocolate guitar cake.nice but too sweet...maybe those with sweet tooth will love it lots.lol..after eating cake,i went home as was completely tired...bought some teochew kueh for my ah ma...from 荣记!their kueh is nice man...haha...ate some for breakfast today:P..after reaching home,i shower and had dinner. practiced abit of guitar,end up falling asleep on bed from 9pm to 12midnight.lol...super tired.fb awhile and went back to sleep...

pics up in fb.shall not elaborate much:Dtime to sleep!!

wk 1

2010-04-23T21:18:00.002+08:00

finally completed edited the html of the previous video that i posted...lol..really more and more addicted to that song..at least listen once a day?lol

yesterday went out with weix and fel...super long nv meet up already.lol.but it seems like none of us have changed.character still as same as others.the most maybe can say i changed abit?lol...i duno...starting to not to know myself more and more

one wk of sch already past...omg..super fast man.and i m not like have a good health when i go sch..wth,always like tat..lol..how to concentrate man..haha...this wk..can say past fast and quick,maybe not as stressful as it may turn out in the future?

tml have to wake up early...help jes celebrate vic 21st!!haha...quite excited...wonder wat will happen...but i guess i will leave early as i have to get home to do stuff...hmm...

shall pack notes!

sleepy

2010-04-22T00:33:00.005+08:00

super tired.i duno y..but i feel so drained after 3days of sch..haha..i guess i m getting older.i m going to love wed.lol..only have lecture,then go home early and i get to meet cca friends later in the night...lol...love it!

today went to help out in club crawl.feel completely different as i was handling alot of stuff last yr and now i can just sit around and stone because i duno wat is the exact info to be conveyed to the freshies...lol...and also meet up with alot of friends that have left gc and came back to look around.have alot of fun...bring back memories...lol..and again...as per usual...always have something weird during practices...and really alot..haha...for today...nearly have a mars vs venus fight(girls vs guys) but i think guys will win cos they have much more compared to us...lol...maybe can start a debating club soon within the cca.lol...i gonna miss so much fun of cca after graduating!!!

sometimes...really wonder...haha..have been feeling quite different in cca..not only me but also other committees.like suddenly free from responsibility but we just wan to do something..and not only so...some pple...seems like have changed..but duno where exactly they change...making us feel so distant..

anyway,here's a video..haha...quite popular among my gc friends.title:wedding dress

sch reopen

2010-04-20T00:46:00.002+08:00

starts sch today...argh...start with such a bad timing.woke up earlier in the morning so that i can arrive one hour lesson so that i can print notes,due to my cpu breakdown.lol...in the end as expected, when i reach,the crowd is like OMG...lol..long queue...i printed some impt and urgent ones first...after abt 10-20min,the queue starts to disappear then i went to print again.lol..and it turn out that early in the morning so many of my classmates went to print notes in the printing shop.all like home printer spoil or something.lol...after tat,went for lectures and tuts.super dry and boring man!like nearly all is business business and business...i thought i m free from marketing after yr 2.but why is everything coming back?10modules in a semester with all the exams,tuts,projects,presentation piling up,i wonder m i able to cope...

maybe i one day mental break down will be something like last sat.lol..after tuition i damn emo,went to hougang to check some price,then went to ntuc to buy 1 tub of lava chocolate icecream...and 2 cups of yoghurt...eat them ALL up while on the way home..think is a release stress in one go kind...haha...maybe next time i can do it again...who noes when this rush of emotions will come again.lol...

have been loading classical pieces into my hp as my ringtone.think this is my second sign of mental breakdown?lol...i think i m going abit crazy these days...weird behaviour and thinking...lol..think i will have to take a visit down to IMH soon...

sometimes i wonder...does everybody really keep fantasizing or daydream the whole day...i have been starting to imagine some impossible stuff...and sometimes i try to stop myself as i need to concentrate,i just can't...haiz...also,recently,after meeting up with some pple and stuff...start to think alot...issit really once past that moment,u can nv get it back again?is like nothing is the same as before anymore...i duno y...wat i feel..somewat distant.how come?

got to sleep...eyelids are weighing tonnes...

end of tuition

2010-04-17T22:47:00.002+08:00

i think i decided to stop teaching that tutee tuition...maybe abit waste of my time?sometimes i wonder if i m a good teacher...is like...i try my best to teach already.but hearing the tutee down there complaining is boring and stuff...sometimes it kinds of hurt ur confidence and stuff...i dun even noe he understand those topics anot.i ask him if he know how to do,he say ya,then when do, the answer come out wrong...and the following wk do revision same things occur...i really duno...

o wells...anyway,today went out to watch 'date night'.only 3 pple in the theatre including me and HL.lol...damn pathetic...i think the movie must be watched with big crowd so can have the effect...lol...after tat went to have teppanyaki for lunch and bought a new ballet flats...how nice lor..all my ballet flats spoil at one go...i have no choice but to purchase one asap.lol.after tat the bad tuition experience,shopping for swimsuit and lastly home for dinner and tv...

now i m feeling so tired...didn't sleep well last night.i duno y i just couldn't fall asleep.now i duno wat i can do with this kind of sleepy thoughts

sushi

2010-04-13T12:18:00.002+08:00

just finished making my sushi(as seen below):

2nd attempt...dun seem as good as the first.the first time i used crabstick and fried egg...this i used tuna and egg mayo...do not look tat appealing..though the taste was quite ok...wonder is it because those ingredients are mainly paste thats y i cannot put much of the filling inside...

shall go out soon in a few mins time. and let my sushi being judged by the same pple again.lol..made last wk and brought to cca as a dinner,but end up being eaten up mostly by my cca friends...they say that is nice...but i wonder how does this taste to them.lol..

alrights.leaving now!

没能猜到。。。

2010-04-11T01:00:00.002+08:00

当你觉得你是世上最幸福的一个人的时候，一件无法预料的事情却突如其来的发生，让你回到空虚的世界，你会有什么反应呢？

fate...

2010-04-09T23:40:00.003+08:00

fate is really something that is so unpredictable. it can bring together 2 person who do not know each other, make them understand one another, like each other or even fall in love with each other.but who knows, when the time comes, they have to be separated for so many different reasons. it is really so sad to see this kind of things happening right in front of you...

we got married!

2010-04-09T13:42:00.002+08:00

have not been posting up blog since about a wk...can say busy and also not busy?lol...

have been worrying abt the stuff happening at home..but more or less it have settled down quite abit so kind of ok already.

went out a few times with colleague and cca friends..really like nothing much when going out.haha...realise i have been spending more time at home watching videos instead...at first i started to feel abit sian using computer,but after watching the variety: we got married, i like addicted to the computer everyday,cos i would hope to finish watching the show before the sch starts,which is quite hard since i am like teaching tuition or going to sch for cca, by the time i get to watch it,it will be in the night and i only get to watch 1 or 2 episodes and my mum would nag at me to sleep...at least today i m home for the whole day so i more or less can watch more.

had a sushi making session on wed...haha...and i completely rush the whole thing cos i woke up late,i have to prepare everything by myself, and cca starts at 3pm instead of 6pm...so i made quite a few to share with my cca frens and also to have it for my dinner...finally get to make them after talking about it for so long...

school is going to start soon...like 10 more days?holidays past so fast man....i like haven enjoy myself as much...and the timetable was not tat good...worse thing is i cannot travel to and fro for my guitar...i dun wan to bring it to sch since 8am!haiz...shall see how things go by then..

shall continue my show now!~

family outing

2010-04-01T22:31:00.002+08:00

today went to renew my passport...luckily now got new payment method so at least the waiting wasn't that bad...lol..

since was early,we decided to go makan...and i reccommended buffet since my dad was quite good in eating.haha..went to eat lao beijing,and the meal was on me...since i have been earning for quite sometime,though the amount is very minimal,but i think i should do that some times as i also nv give allowance...is like nearly half of my tuition pay.lol...but nvm la..hope they enjoy their meal can le.

after that we went home...and i slept all the way till 830pm.nearly like 3hrs?i wonder is it because of my flu and also of the medicine i take.but i wasn't feeling that well the past few days.haiz.i wonder wat happen...hope nothing serious la...cos i also like sleep a lot..like nearly 2/3 of my time i spent awake.haiz...

was noting down my movies screening dates on my organizer.lol.damn lame sia.cos i scared i miss out the movie...next movie, date night will screen on april 8.shall go watch it!

my sis is now crazy over we got married...got the leader of C.N. Blue and acted in you're beautiful...i wonder if i should watch.hehe

busy

2010-03-29T23:51:00.007+08:00

have been busy with lots of stuff recently...and things have been happening one by one which i have no mood to talk abt it.feeling very restless recently...keep taking naps and sleeping...i have no idea y...watever...i give up

just finished watching 就想赖着你.again...was always the ending abit not wat i expected...but overall not bad la..some parts quite funny

well,got nothing much to post...actually wanted to upload pictures of the models i made on saturday.but it seems like i have problem uploading. shall make do with just one..the picture below..which is one of my 2 worst model out of all because for this the 'head' abit hard to do...hehe

browsing

2010-03-28T01:39:00.002+08:00

was just looking through my blog,and realise i post alot of stuff in march.perhaps it was the holidays and practically have nothing to do.lol...

finally finished packing the cupboard.in total empty out 2 bags of garbage.lol...i wonder y i kept them initially.lol..going to be done with the mini models that i took to do up..left one last one..which is more tough.tml task to do is to do my write up for testimonial,which i have to hand in and i have no idea wat to type...cos it sounds so self praise.lol...

during the past few days,alot of things happen,make my mood super down.i feel like cooping at home cos i dun feel like going out,but i dun wan to be at home cos i will have to do alot of things and 'see' alot of things...is there anywhere tat i can be alone?i just need a place of my own..sometimes i feel like moving out to live alone...cos wats the point of living together when your presence is kind of ignored?haiz...sometimes....i really dun like my aunt...biased and proud...really hate to face them

what the...

2010-03-27T00:50:00.003+08:00

today went to eat steam boat buffet for dinner at bugis near the shaw house...was quite nice..the food...alot of variety..actually it is like seoul garden la...hot plate cum steamboat.lol.have quite alot of fun together...while eating,met some of my sec sch frens and also the shop caught fire.lol...so 'special' right.haha...

after dinner,we went to illuma to walk around...actually wan catch a movie but nothing nice...then they wan go club,but the girls are not ok with it,so in the end we went tcc to have a drink and play games.i suay till the max...kenna all forfeit.damn it...watever man..dun even bother to think abt it le..damn embarassing...

packing

2010-03-25T22:36:00.004+08:00

finally finished packing half of my cupboard today.lol...took quite some time to sort out the stuff and etc,and packed out a big bag of rubbish and also a pile of exercise books,notebooks and empty cd covers...kind of found quite alot of stuff that is related to my secondary sch,which makes me miss some parts of the secondary sch...wells...already graduated for about 3yrs?lol.thinking abt that,it was somewhat long time ago...

shall continue to pack my cupboard tml!have been lacking of sleep..

"It takes a second to say I love you,but a lifetime to show it"

"If I have to choose between loving you and breathing,I would use my last breath to say " I love you"."

drained...

2010-03-23T23:30:00.006+08:00

woke up at 7am again today...super tired...took care of grandma before going out...went to eat dim sum buffet at dragon gate,follow by a movie. the buffet was quite nice...really filling.ate like only once of most variety of food and can feel full le...and we nv order finish all food on menu.lol.in the end left with fried rice,as we duno who to clear,we played a game:write numbers on toothpick and we pick one by turns and eat the no. of mouth of rice accordingly.lol...only way to clear the rice.haha...but ate 2 bowls of cold corn and mixed fruit sago.super delicious.haha...dun mind eating alot but damn fattening due to coconut milk.haha

after tat watch movie at vivo.really weird man...only vivo dun offer student price.is like wat the??anyway,watched remember me...it was ok la...cos some part of the movie is abit unknown to me..but still overall can remember la.haha...then from those trailers before the movie,i saw 4 interesting movie to me: whip it, when in rome, date night, and letters to juliet.these add on to my movie list after the last song.lol...i realise those are like romance comedy stuff...lol (trailers at bottom)

nv get to pack my cupboard AGAIN cos i was home late..lol...tml i guess?haha...really need pack la..but now damn late le..hehe..

o wells,tml another 'morning shift'.time to sleep early!

a whole new world

2010-03-23T09:51:00.002+08:00

while waiting to go out and also liven up my down mood,due to results(though still abit no use),i saw a quite long ago video. Super Junior KyuHyun and a girl(if i not wrong,the girl is called Charice) singing 'A Whole New World'.Quite nice.lol...to me sounds abit like original soundtrack.lol

sad

2010-03-23T08:58:00.003+08:00

i now dun have any mood to get out of the house.firstly is because of rain.second is beause of my results.it just came out not long ago.though i counted score better than my previous sem,but because my previous sem really score damn bad,so my results are pulled down even more. i scored a majority of Bs,but then the high credit points one i scored majority B and C+,only got an A,but actually i expected to have another A.haiz.

totally not in any mood...

super tired!

2010-03-23T00:38:00.002+08:00

today i felt like totally drained off...last night cannot really sleep until about 2plus am,then woke up at 6plus 7am to take care of my grandma as my mum is out and no one is at home and i was specifically picked.help her around the house,prepared food and drinks for her,help her apply medicine then she lie on the sofa to sleep.quite a lot of pple came to visit today so to be exact,i only catch a few minutes of sleep at times,always on the floor.and my sis can happily sleep on her bed till 11am.wth.unfair man.then i used lap top for a moment,before more relatives come and also my mum come back home.so after lunch,as my living room is too crowded,i decided to stay in the kitchen to help my mum with preparation of dinner,where i end up slicing small part of the skin of my finger.lol..and i duno where it end up.HAHA.then after all relatives gone home,i on my lap top again.but before doing much,after signing in of msn,i fell asleep beside my laptop,on the floor for a short moment.after tat i went jogging and after that was bath,dinner and continue of using laptop and watch dvd.

suppose to pack my cupboard today as planned.luckily i did not empty them in the day if not with so many pple coming to visit,they will see a mess over the floor.lol

have been aching all over...wonder issit rheumatism.lol.cos i have been falling asleep on the floor more and more frequent already.lol.if i really have rheumatism,it proves my age-->i m getting old.LOL

heard that results is going to be out tml.damn scared sia!!!hope it is all fine and nv pull DOWN my GPA...hope it PULLS UP!!!!

alrights.shall go sleep now as i m on 'morning shift' again ALONE!

ah ma!get well soon!!

2010-03-21T23:14:00.004+08:00

today was another boring day again.woke up,had breakfast and back to doing household chores again.actually at first is just wiping of the floor.after tat,i went back to read my book 'the last song'.the second time i read and i can still cry at the part when the dad is dying.haiz..then half way through the book,receive a call from my aunt whom fetch my grandma to the clinic, that my grandma had fainted and ask us to hurry cook some porridge for her while my uncle fetch her home.she seems weak when she reach home...so in the end the whole family begin to 'supervise' her.i even read my book beside her bed just in case she need anything,while my aunt do her stuff...when my aunt is back,i went to my parents room to continue reading,as i can't possibly cry in front of my grandma for just a book right.lol...so after finish reading,i went to prepare dinner ingredients,followed by ironing of clothes.after that was about 4plus and i did not take any lunch.so i ate a super heavy tea-time meal.followed by using of computer since i got nothing to do.lol..and now i was ordered or specifically picked to be the one on 'shift' tml morning when none of my parents are in and i have to supervise my grandma.i m ok with doing this but then one thing make me irritated...i was reminded duno how many hundred times over the same thing--> to wake up early,by my parents and aunt....do i look so irresponsible?

o wells...watever...i dun give a damn la...i confirm will wake up early no matter wat.will try my best...but is like wth la..i hate it when pple keep reminding me of stuff that i will do,but then they think like as if i cannot do it or wat so ever.is like dun trust me or wat la...damn pissed,which also reminded me of another issue-->when doing housework,my sis was told to do something and she nv talk back,she was like praised or 'loved' cos she do it,then when i volunteer without asking(just because i know the person is sick or unwell and my sis dun even notice),it was like being taken for granted.-_-...i guess no one just understand me...everytime just see the surface or wat...is like i actually care alot and all...like worry for pple and etc just that i dun say it out..and pple think as if i m heartless??

pfft....give up la...just rot during the holidays la...like watever i do..i just look like i m not a filial child or grandchild.maybe i should just live my life for myself?(which i noe is a damn wrong thinking and i confirm will not do it)

haiz.this few days really alot of things happen and make me think alot.damn...really man...pple are enjoying holidays but yet i seems to be dreading holiday...argh...

if i were to show trust in you,it means that i have 100% of that trust in you.however,once u betrayed it,you will never have that trust again

star king

2010-03-21T01:23:00.001+08:00

saw another video of star king.Super Junior Leeteuk VS Eunhyuk pillow fight...damn funny..haha

cold weather

2010-03-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

wah...today have been raining for practically the whole day.i m feeling super cold.like freezing le la...this kind of weather really makes pple fall sick easily...awhile hot awhile cold...damn jia lat.

even though today is still raining,i still went to give tuition,which i came back feeling pissed...i wonder if i should continue giving tuition anot lor...i gave a tuition which is of the same time as the travelling time that i took to go his house and go home,in the end he is not appreciative at all...wth man...the mum is like so pai seh and trying to make up to me...but he is not giving a shit damn on it.and some more i m teaching him at a low rate...wth...

had a really strange dream last night.but was a nice dream...haha...if it can continue i dun mind.lol...

tml i plan to make sushi and pack cupboard...though i wonder when will i be able to do that cos i have not bought any ingredients for sushi...lol..see if tml got rain or if got mood to step out of house.hehe...even if i go also only cook for myself to eat.lol

can't wait for friday to come!going out with the batch 13 and 14 guitar mates for steamboat!!!yay!!haha...confirm damn fun de...talking abt cca...should i get my testimonial from my officer?

tired

2010-03-19T00:51:00.004+08:00

today woke up slightly earlier than usual...to watch video together with my sis using itouch on the bed...but i m totally not enjoying it at all...cos i m having dry eyes and the construction outside is pissing me off.lol.the construction is like starting since 8am,and i always cannot have a good sleep after that.and i m not sure issit because of that,i felt sleepy ALWAYS.haha...really pig sia...

after tat went to have tuition.tiring.and maybe because of the lack of sleep,was kind of pissed by the tutee today.lol.actually honestly speaking la.though it is super poorly paid, but at least kind of can enjoy and slack there.the mum was kind of nice.haha.had a specially brewed green tea for me.was awesome.lol...not bad to me...hehe..and always when the mum is around,we always talk non stop.kind of suprised that the tutee actually said that he rather i teach than other pple.haha...guess maybe i was too lenient on him?lol

then when i back home,log on to facebook and saw comments-->back to cca stuff again...argh...y always like tat man...haha..cannot describe how i feel just now.but after talking to my senior,kind of let off abit.haha..maybe i worry or think too much.all of them is asking me to chill..LOL...but... 大哥不愧是大哥.just a while solve my worries and promise to settle my problems.lol...he is my 大哥大!lol..really lor...i respect him alot..cos of the way he do some stuff..though sometimes i kind of get scared cos when he is angry...u really feel like running 100000000km away...lol...exaggerating,but super scary.his face black,all of us shut totally...lol..even i this kind of talkative mouth also suddenly just stone.haha.but really kind of glad to have him around to solve problems whenever i meet anything...haha..too bad he not my bro sia!if not i confirm stick on him ah...haha...fight or wat also can...lol...now it makes me really wan to have a brother but is 100% impossible.lol.if all my cca seniors are my siblings 就好了.they always brighten up my day no matter wat...awwww!!!i gonna miss them sooooooooooooooooooo much!!!

as the blog are getting more and more wordy as i have not been adding videos and pics,shall end off today with a short clip of star king, with Super Junior SungMin, 2am JoKwon and Shinee JongHyun singing together with a talented boy with slight disabilities singing my love!the whole christmas specials is worth watching:)

skipping lessons..LOL

2010-03-18T00:11:00.003+08:00

today wasn't in the mood to step out of the house...have been out for a week..somemore also not feeling well..so in the end i never go for cca..heard that there is only about 10pple turn up.so pathetic!lol...but i think i noe why...the bond of the cca is gone...OMG...damn sad...i wonder issit cos of our batch that never handle well therefore this thing happen?i m not so sure...haiz...

well...for my case...now not keen in going cca have 2 reasons...one is that the seniors are gone...then our batch are majority going for attachment..so is like...no one is around anymore?then for the juniors...they really like heck care dun care mood make me damn sian..the committee it self is like that man!wat do u expect from the members if the committee is not bonded or even not well communicated...i really duno wat to say...whose fault?!i really feel like as if i m a failure.i cannot do much stuff cos i m not incharge any more...i dun wan to care to much if not they say i like...haiz...CONFUSED!!!

piggy pig

2010-03-17T00:47:00.002+08:00

i realise i have been sleeping for like super long these days...even though i like sleep at 1am daily(not early but also not that late),i will only wake up or drag myself off the bed at 11plus 12..the temptation of sleep and bed is just so shiok...if can dream abt good dream even better...talking about tat,i dreamt about me myself having only one leg..the other leg amputated...but i cannot really remember the details...is quite fantasy type i think...but..quite scary to think of it...and i woke up crying...super weird to dream this stuff...haiz...

today went to teach tuition again...almost late as i woke up at 12plus,had to prepare and ate own brunch within 15min,bathe and rush out of house by 1pm and reach there in time only...was kind of tiring to teach...i duno y...lol..these days i like becoming a elderly already..everything all do slowly..holidays are making me lazy!!!

then before going home,i talk to the tutee mum,which is also my godaunt for nearly an hour...lol..talk and talk non stop...lol...university entry la...my future la..blah blah blah.hear le also scared.

lol..then back home,i started to continue to download videos for my sis itouch(or rather i m also sharing with her...cos i m also paying)..till now only loaded 7episodes of autumn concerto..damn slow sia!

tml is wednesday...a cca day...but i have no mood to go because i have been out for the past 1 wk and teaching so many tuitions...moreover i m not really feeling tat well and majority of my clique pple are not turning up...how?should i go or not...haiz...shall see how tml...

BORED!!

2010-03-15T14:12:00.002+08:00

haiz...i really have nothing to do at home man..even if i on my com...i like staring blankly at it.i have no dramas and varieties to watch,no manga or comic that i can read,no games to play,and even facebook also doesn't interest me now...wth...

woke up early today to accompany my grandma to the clinic as she is complaining of itch for the past few days...and was suspected that maybe there is some bug biting my grandma?i not sure...as i dun feel anything at all...haha...shall disinfect the house then:D

hmm...wat should i do now?maybe i should take a nap-_-

the last song

2010-03-13T15:11:00.000+08:00

read finish the last song.it was awesome!i cried at the part when the dad is dying.it is really sad man...i wonder if this kind of things really happen in real life...the character in the story,Ronnie,was really strong...and also pitiful...duno how to describe her life.everything about her change in a summer..it is really...

alrights...this is just a short post as i have to go for my lunch cum dinner before heading of to the concert...lol..the only thing that make me excited is only SHINee.lol..

brilliant brilliance

2010-03-13T00:37:00.002+08:00

just finished watching brilliant legacy..not bad!no harm watching for korean show fans...lol...finished the drama...kind of in a day?haha...but is really chiong and chiong de...lol..of course the usual me...i skip parts.but i still can understand the drama la.lol

read half of the last song for abt 2hrs.not bad..though some part is abit lengthy.can't wait for the movie to be out!!shall continue reading before sleeping...hmmm...wat show should i watch next?

sakae!

2010-03-11T23:35:00.002+08:00

went out with sis today to have a feast and also to get my dad's present.

we first went to heartland to eat sakae tea time buffet...the menu really change a lot la...some sushi variety that i wanted they remove already...sad lor...now i got even lesser variety of sushi to choose from.but their buffet got like new 'rule' la..like can eat all $1.99 plate and a $3.99 and $5.99 plate...those dishes are more of new...i choose fried ebi sushi and lobster salad sushi...the lobster salad...jia lat...got wasabi inside and i forgot about it..the first piece was ok..then slowly it become worse and worse..nearly puke.lol...but i lost count of how much i ate today cos majority was chatting with my sis and the food are somewat shared among each other.

after that,we took the train down to dhoby ghaut,walk all the way to orchard instead of taking mrt as we are hoping to see if we can see some stuff on the way,but end up just walking straight to taka...walk around the departmental store but got nothing suitable..plan to go ion to take a look but saw kinokuniya(not sure if i spell right).the varieties of books are really alot alot...take me hard time to find the book i wanted-->the last song...until i saw the directory there...waste my time walking round and round when i actually keep passing by the shelf...and my sis got herself a korean dictionary cos she wanted to learn korean.lol.

after tat,we went ion to find my dad gift...i walk until damn tired for the whole day but did not get any gift...super pathetic la...and we went home with bloated stomach,our books,and nothing for my dad...o wells...just cook a sumptous meal for my dad this sat then:D

headache

2010-03-10T23:51:00.002+08:00

just got home from cca and had a shower.tired and having a headache now which i have no reason y i m feeling so...maybe cos i waited for the bus for too long?just now waited for 40min just to get a bus...super duper long wait sia...

gonna pack my cupboard and computer table tml.totally in a mess...and i m suppose to pack them like a week ago?my mum have been nagging at me for the past few days for not keeping the mess..lol..and i m not even bothered about it!

weather is freaking hot sia...and all my frens that are overseas,no matter those in japan,london,china and etc all say they are freaking cold...damn...and worse...i m growing horizontally!but with this kind of weather i totally dun feel like jogging or exercising at all...

going out with sis tml for a feast...sinful right?!when i was just complaining about growing horizontally..how contradicting...

talking abt cca...today is really awesome!haha...at first was feeling quite bored...cos only 4 seniors turn up..but not a while later all the seniors came back!!YAY!!and we are having a 2hr bickering session with only abt half an hour of practice time in the middle...totally love it..haha..but if in the past(when i have the position) i will confirm feel stress abt pple not practicing..but o wells...i m now JUST A MEMBER...i shall not care too much if not..just enjoy my last one sem with pple in GC before i m off for attachment!!

going to play some games now before sleeping:D

shock

2010-03-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

got a scare just now...cannot log on to my user of the com la...scary sia!i like my computer!!!lol...yesterday was just working fine.just updated and shutdown,then today when on the com turn out like tat. i restart my computer for a few times but still the same thing...jia lat sia...then i call the HP service centre. the customer service officer was so damn nice.haha...he going to call back to check on my com tml again. HP customer service is really awesome. that time something happen to my diskdrive, i went down service not more than one day the person called me and tell me say that they will DELIVER my laptop to my house.so nice la!i dun even need to find time to go down to the service centre which is so damn far. i guess with this kind of customer service they confirm can get alot of loyal customers.lol.

due the the shock that i have, i m making backup copies into a hard drive then i m off to sch for cca!!kind of looking forward to the gossiping time:D

boring life~~

2010-03-09T13:05:00.002+08:00

wah...really damn super duper bored at home man!life super miserable.lol.totally nothing to do.now i already finished watching all the dramas and videos that i wanted to watch and i already have no other shows to watch.is like no shows that i m interested to watch.even if there is,the show also haven finish airing(full drama ep is not out) so i dun plan to watch...

crap...haiz...shall go pack my stuff then..tml is another cca day!

random

2010-03-07T01:44:00.004+08:00

i really like as if got nothing to do and keep blogging for the whole night.lol.duno wat the hell i m doing man.lol.just finished watching The Notebook. well...it was nice.but not as how I expected. I thought i will be like loving the movie that much that i will keep watching but somehow that is not the case. hmm...just that the ending was kind of sad.the elderly couple pass away together,holding hands on the hospital bed(hopefully wat i interpret was right:P)..kind of touching don't u think?

haha.my mind have been damn blank that it can go to different extremes in thinking about stuff.super retarded and super crazy.shall not say anything and shall keep in in my heart:Dhehe...

time to sleep!

“我喜欢你。。。你明明不是我喜欢的那个人，但是我就是喜欢你。”

AVATAR!

2010-03-06T22:35:00.002+08:00

though is kind of a little late to watch now...haha..just finished watching avatar online.damn cool.regret not able to watch it in 3D at the theatres. too bad...haha..at least i can get to watch them online.lol..kind of cool.though it is more like a fantasy and unable to happen in real life.lol..

wat should i watch next man..damn BORED!

"Sometimes you have to be apart with someone you love. But that doesn't mean you love them any less."

yawnz...

2010-03-06T20:23:00.003+08:00

damn boring at home...currently jobless.haha...but i guess i should be not finding any more jobs as from wat my sis say,usually pple dun wan hire pple for only a month (unless u noe the boss) and it is quite true la..cos i saw some of the criteria for the jobs...usually at least 2-4mths. o well,i shall just rot at home then.lol.maybe pack some stuff or something,concentrate on my tuition and perhaps cca?

just finished 海派甜心 an hour ago.not bad la...quite funny...but i guess it will be a show that i watch once and maybe will not repeat watching again? hmm...now duno wat movie can i watch...still searching...

shall continue to search for videos:D

“事情往往都不会发生在你的预料之中，结果往往意想不到，但是这就是你的命运，永远都逃不了。”

mixed emotions...

2010-03-05T15:15:00.003+08:00

i duno whether to feel happy or sad now..

did i make the correct decision 3 yrs ago?

will my life have a complete twist if i were to make the other decision?

would my life be better or worse then?

somehow i just think that wat i did last yr was a complete waste...

BON VOYAGE XIN YUAN!!~~

2010-03-05T00:28:00.002+08:00

went to try out for a job in the clinic today...but when i look at the application form i kind of stone there...cos the form looks very 'formal'..most likely going to be hiring for full timer,and somemore there is clinic all around singapore, thus i might not be given the place tat i wan. so instead i went home..and watch my 下一站的幸福 that i have left since yesterday..the drama was quite nice afterall...at least it make me change my views on vaness...cos actually initially i dun really like him much:Phehe..

just now just went to send xin yuan off...took en ling's car to go airport and go home..haha..like both journey either scold other driver or curse and swear at someone...lol...fun time la..though only like short 2 hrs?haha...like auntie's gathering lor..talk damn loud like market like tat..haha..on car like full blast mode.meet xin yuan also talk like full blast...whole airport so damn quiet...everyone can hear our convo liao..lol..too bad one 'auntie' not around cos she herself is in bangkok..and we nv send her off..haha..七缺一啊！！哈哈！

P.S to xin yuan:
WE WILL MISS YOU ALOT OK!!!COME BACK SOON!!!Really miss you alot when u are not around...those outings which u organise majority of them, studying together even though we are different course in poly..sometimes random sms because we are feeling down.but now cannot sms already..at least for these 4 months..cos u in china...impossible to fly and meet each other right..lol...and talking abt tat..guess u noe wat question we wan ask u just now with our full blast volume right..haha..but hope maybe one day u can tell us?lol:P
last of all, BON VOYAGE!

the broken road

2010-03-03T23:53:00.001+08:00

I duno why...but the more i hear this song...i kind of love it more...

woots~~haircut!

2010-03-03T21:29:00.001+08:00

after waking up early in the morning, me and my sis was lazy to get out of the house so instead of watching valentine's day in the early afternoon, me and my sis played the whole day of viwawa.lol...

went to get a haircut today...suddenly feel like as if my head was released of a lot of burden!lol..like last time my head damn heavy like tat.haha...went to layer my hair and cut my fringe.lol...but then it seems like majority of my white hair is exposed again.lol.

busy day tml...shall try out if i can get a part time job and also...maybe get a swim suit.after tat going to go airport to send xin yuan off...she is going to china for 4 months...so this means that our sec sch clique outing going to stop temp?lol...

alrights...going to play viwawa again!!

exams are finally over!

2010-03-02T21:25:00.003+08:00

YES!!exams are finally over...wee!!!flying to the moon...haha...though the last paper ended badly,but o well,fate already sealed.wat can i do?just wait for my results to come to me lor...hope it is flying with colours to me...lol

today finally got a break after ALL exams...went out to watch dear john..haha...not bad movie la...quite nice..duno how to describe the movie..only 2 words:not bad.lol.while watching the movie i saw another preview of nicholas sparks movie: the last song.seems nice man!haha..gonna buy the book tml if possible:D

talking about that, i m going to watch valentine's day with sis tml!!anticipating...wonder if it is nice.alrights!shall play mahjong!end off with preview of the last song:D

coffee~~

2010-02-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

i think i need to get a cup of coffee every morning from tml onwards...shall give it a try to see if it works-->for keeping me awake. have been feeling sleepy the whole day,like everytime i start reading notes i start day dreaming,if not is i lie on bed,then start dozing off...and it is not the first time!!!must really keep the momentum...or at least dun fall asleep AND DAYDREAM!!is there any way to turn off my daydreaming machine?

shall read abit of manga before sleep..since i have been 'mugging' on my notes in the afternoon..

有情人终成眷属！

2010-02-21T02:10:00.002+08:00

finally finish watching cruel temptations/temptation of wife...damn nice.but ending was a little sad.at first really hate the bad characters but all change to good person in the end.haiz..y can't they realise each other good at the start.harm each other but in the end cause harm to themselves and the people around them...y??haha...random thoughts!

can't believe it man.exams is coming in less than 5days.and i haven't finish reading a module.wats more memorizing...and i still can watch my drama and variety online.lol.jia lat jia lat...tml must work hard!!but can i?:P

today went out with secondary sch clique fren for a gathering at just acia...food wasn't tat bad.after that went to walk around,take many pics in public toilet(i duno for wat reason) and then went arcade to play.miss the times when all of us happily spend our time in arcade in the past,and wearing a jacket over our uniforms just to go in to arcade and play.of course besides the playing, also miss the time when all of us mug together in school library and public library cafe...haiz...time machine!!

haha...anyway received a very very BELATED birthday present from them. a $50 capitalland voucher.lol..and all thanks to en ling,in the end there is 3 person getting the same present, one is also belated and another is early birthday gift.lol...and i also receive a damn cute baby pooh chain from xin yuan.thank u a million!i really love it!damn cute.next time if i remember then i will post on blog.

actually,thinking about which,now all the people around me are already adults.wat present to give during their birthday?vouchers might really be a good choice...something practical..lol

alrights.got to off com now!

looking at notes...

2010-02-11T13:44:00.002+08:00

the notes ah...see so many times...still like unfamiliar..or more of staring at the same page for hours...just no mood to study!!thats y blogged:P

random post~~

pharmcotherapy test next!

2010-02-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

ah crap...pharmacotherapy test is coming up on fri.i haven even touch the notes a single bit...needles...argh...must start studying tml!!!

this few days have been addictive to comics..happen to come by one i like alot..the rest ok ok only..then now awaiting for another one to update!hurry hurry update!!!damn exciting!!!

nothing to blog abt today,practically stay at home to rot and rest cos wasn't feeling tat well..haiz...always like tat...

time for bed now!!

《说一句“我爱你”需要很大的勇气。因为我怕我不能实现我对你的承诺。》

irritated

2010-02-08T23:42:00.002+08:00

wah..damn pissed just now...which make me have a bad mood for the whole night.one thing is cause of talking to someone which make me wan to faint,vomit blood or even slam my laptop.then now my head is aching,throat pain,runny nose...sleepy somemore...make my mood damn off...

just open my email and read...damn!my med micro test have no MCQ!how to survive man!my weakest subject.I still plan to target the MCQ to score lor..then now like tat...crap..that means i must really study hard for tat...dang!

going to go out with secondary school frens on the 20th of Feb...kind of anticipating and also dun feel like going. anticipating cos i have never see the whole bunch of them for very long.but sian is cos test is coming up,i haven even touch a single bit.how to revise like tat...argh....y my brain cannot work better?it is like deteoriating man.wat can i do to train my brain???

tml is another hr of pharmacy shift..damn sian de lor...nothing to do de la...stand down there like a statue-_-...wats the point??

TEP!!!

2010-02-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

tml have TEP test...duno y i feel so tense up...hope tml i will not continue to be like tat and i will pass the test with flying colours!cos usually if i panick...the things dun do well:S

alrights..shall read the notes once more and off to bed!

pissed off

2010-02-06T01:34:00.002+08:00

damn irritated...i suppose to feel like happier due to the drama i just watched. but after discuss about the project and settle some cca stuff,really feel irritated.

sch stuff shall not say...cos not first time...and abt cca...one thing is cause i hand over for a month already and yet i need to settle matters cos pple did not do it well before handing down. then now financial wise problem...always like tat.the calculations of money always have problems and it kinds of pissed me off.as a treasurer,every amount must count correctly and collect. but the thing is tat the budget overshot,and is not 10over dollars.is hundred over.damn alot!hidden fund drained can.how can do so.m i responsible for it?but dun tell me accounts also i in charge of checking?then wats the point of asking the treasurer to do.haiz.just hope can recoup next yr

irritated now..nothing more to post

jewelry!

2010-02-03T00:05:00.003+08:00

omg...i really going to miss jewelry...their love story...omg...weeps...y everytime when i notice a band is that when they are going to disband-_-..choi choi choi...hope i not so cua sai...haiz...i watch the mv damn sad la...really love park jung ah voice and seo in young...:(

haha..talking abt that...i think i suay myself and the people around me la...like yesterday morning,nearly got into a bus accident and also nearly fall flat on the road by tripping on bus steps. then on sunday keep cutting my hand accidentally.damn suay.people that i seldom talk to,always when i happen to talk to him/her,they tell me they here sick there pain...m i a jinx??

lol..shall end the post with jewelry song:'(

crap

2010-01-31T21:16:00.001+08:00

just edited the blogskin due to some error in the previous one.

BUT!!!i lost my links.crap.only left those that i can really remember or viewed recently...sianz...

you're beautiful!

2010-01-31T20:31:00.002+08:00

omg!i finally finished watching the drama...actually can finish even earlier,but half way my sis joined in thats y i have no choice but to watch without skipping(which is wat i normally do)...aww...so sweet man!so cool lor...ahh!!!haha...going crazy already...shall go check price tml.think i can calm down my emotions soon...

recently again in love with FT Island's First Kiss...cause of the drama...haha...and makes me wan to learn the song,but always till the prechorus then stuck.jia lat.haha...must persevere!hope can finish the whole song..cos see the guitarist play damn shiok.lol

nowadays i having K-craze..look at new bands and stuff...and starting to fall in love with those music bands...oh god...haha...all the guitar and keyboard.crap sia...haha...suddenly wan to focus on music,but have to study.

haiz.getting more and more forgetful nowadays also.duno where is my tuner..duno where i left it...shall continue to look for it..TUNER WHERE R U!!!

becoming stupid...

2010-01-28T01:00:00.002+08:00

was just doing my med chem tut just now...totally stare at my paper. and my paper stared back at me...i totally duno how to do...with all my graphs, my results just do not tally!WTH!is like i duno how to do cos i nv pay attention/dun understand, or is there a problem with the question or wat.damn pissed.somemore doing the work at this time of the night-1am!and i m having headache and feeling tired.well, more or less i will try do them tml night or some other day. haiz.have been wasting my time for duno wat stuff this few days. i should not be busy as nearly all my projects are done. but why i still feel that i have alot of things to do?!

today just received the results/posting of my IAP next year. got attached to SGH for 2 times(some other pple got 2 different placing in the 2 slots). well, first of all i did not choose hospital as my first choice, but even if i was posted there i m ok with it la...dun feel much about it.lol.just abit worried,wondering if i can cope in the hospital. because hospitals are usually dealing with more important/severe patient.hope i will be able to do my task properly.LABELS!

next,the pathetic and irritating FYP.graded for our yr!damn...seems tough to me...if we were to work and do the project,when on earth can i find the time.i will be so damn tired and drained. somemore presenting alone to directors and lecturer?!OMG!!hope i dun have some nervous syndrome that day>_<

NEVER MIND!ONE MORE YEAR!I CAN DO IT!!!

the bear so cute~

2010-01-26T23:55:00.000+08:00

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2010-01-26T21:31:00.001+08:00

keep wanting to blog something,but whenever i just login to blogger i duno wat i want to write already.lol...just tat so many things happen this few days.but too tired to say much and duno where to say from. haiz...i need to go take a break now..

torturing marketing report

2010-01-24T03:22:00.001+08:00

3.30am now!and i still not sleeping...all because of the MARKETING FOR LIFE SCIENCEs 2 report. crap lor...i like typing and typing,editing and editing since 1030pm till now....still thought I will have an easy job but...haiz...

I must go sleep now already...continue update tml...in case mum wake up!!